NIGHT OWL,DAY OWL.

It's now twelve at night and yes I am still awake. I am waiting for my eyes and my head to let me go to sleep. See, I am so awake in the night. I am very much a night person and always have been and always will be.

I have never been a morning person AT ALL. Even in college when I had classes it took everything I had to pull myself up in the mornings. I'm not sure why, but I always feel more relaxed in the night time, I feel like I am on top of the world at night and no one can stop me.


I really just do not like the mornings. I have a hard time when I get up for work now. Now because I have gotten a little older,now I always have to pull myself up and make sure I have coffee in me because if not I can not function in the mornings.


Maby I really am a night owl,in a day time owls world. Maby that's just what I am. But at least I know I am not alone on this one. We all are either a day time or a night time owl,we just got to figure out which one we really are.

THE LITTLE VOICES FROM WITH IN.

We all have those little voice from with in tell us what is right and what is wrong. However this is one thing that I have struggled with doing this week. It's not that I forget to listen to what my heart tells me to do,it's that sometimes I choose the wrong thing instead of the bad way.

This weeks has kind of been a struggle with in my self. This week I have had to go through a lot and a lot has happened some good and some bad.The good things I don't have to worry about it's the bad things I have had to really had to think about. With everything that has been going on, I have had to decide how to handle them. Sometimes I don't handle things the best way because as I had said I don't like to get in fights with people.

See,I have always been told to handle bad times the way my heart tells me to handle them. Sometimes I forget that, as we all do sometimes. I think there are just times when we all deal with things in a bad way not meaning too of coarse. It's something that we all do it's only human sometimes.

What I need to remember how to do is how to think with my heart and listen to my heart .I do struggle with that,but it's something that I am not alone on because I know everyone does this some time or another. So my lesson for today would be, when you are in a tough spot listen to your heart and do what it tells you to do.
(PS:These are some of my favorite lyrics that go along with what I am talking about.

"I've had choices
Since the day that I was born
There were voices
That told me right from wrong
If I had listened
No I wouldn't be here today
Living and dying
With the choices I made"

A DAY TO CELEBRATE.

OK, time has come and I am finally 21. Boy has it seemed to take forever. That's right it means on June 12th I was born 21 years ago. With cake and ice cream and and family and friends all around me it was time to celebrate and I could honestly not have ask for anything better than what I had.

I am a very simple person. On my birthday I really don't like to have anything to big but this year I decided to do not only one thing but two. First thing that I got to do was to have all my family gather with me and have a nice family dinner. The second thing that I got to do was go out with my friends.

Ok, I do have to admit that I did indeed have a few drinks. Now, I am not bragging so please don't miss interpret me,but yes I did have a few drinks and to tell you the truth they weren't horrible.

See for me it's kind of funny. Everyone keep asking me the whole day on my birthday if I had felt any different in age wise. And to answer EVERY ONES question the answer would be NO I don't feel any different from now that I am 21 to when I was 20. I feel just the same.

I think the reason it's so funny that everyone keep asking me that question is because if you think of it at least for me,when I was little and turned a differet age I always felt different because I was becoming a big girl and able to have more responsibilities. Now that I am 21 I just feel the same as when I did when I was 20.

So to get the point across of what I was saying, yes I really and truly had a great birthday,but no I don't feel any different.

TIME TO MAKE TIME.

Have your ever noticed how when you want time to slow down it seems to go faster,but then when you want it to go faster it goes slower? I have noticed that lately and I have to say that I am a little confused and not sure why.

So, I am going to tell you why I am so confused . Hopefully you will not lose me too bad but if you do I do offer a more simple story. So here we go.

Recently I have been so busy with well everything. Not only do I have a job that right now is so busy, I am also trying to do more things for the summer and of coarse trying to balance family and friends with work. So I got plenty on my plate plus more. Now here is the thing that I get confused on. Get ready.

What I get confused on is why is it that when I want time to go slower when I am doing something fun with my friends and family it always seems to go by in a flash. But when I am at work and I am waiting for the work clock to let me go home it goes by so slow?

It always seems to do that. I am really starting to think that time can read my mind. Like A mind reader. I just have never understood why it does that and to this day still can't figure it out.

MY SUPERHERO.

It's always nice to lend a hand to those who need it,and to stand up for someone when needed. I have seen first hand some people that I serenely will not forget because of the simple way they have helped not only me but my family. Total stranger's caught in the act of doing something so heroic and brave and yet so simple.

When you think of a superhero what is the first thing that comes to your mind? Well, I tell you the first thing that comes to my mind is super powers. It would be so nice to have superpower's and be able to do something so exciting and great. In a way we are all superheros we just don't think about it.

Think about when you stand up for someone or when you see someone standing up for another person. To me that's a superhero because it's not something that everyone does these days.

I have had personal experience to this and had my own superhero come and rescue me . My personal experience was when I had my first job. No,it wasn't a big glamor's job,but it was a job at the time. In this job I had a boss that just did not like me for some odd reason,and I just did not why. I mean I thought I made a good first impression so why didn't she like me? Well one day she decided to lash out at me at full force and it was so bad the only thing that I did was just stood there and cried. Long story short before I knew it a women came up to me and took me from my work and told my boss to go shove it.,

That women did not know me from anything,but that did not stop her from being my guardian angle and standing up for me. She was simply a superhero that used her superpowers to help and young person who needed help.

So you defiantly don't have to have a cape or superpower's or anything to be a superhero. We are all superheros in are own unique ways even if we don't know it and we can all help out in our own ways.

MY NON SLEEPING DAYS.

I have always been able to sleep,except close to exams for school,but that's another point.Anyways back to my original point,which is I simply can't sleep anymore. Plan and simple as that,I just can not sleep and to tell you the truth,I really don't know why.

I have tried so many things from teas,to special lotions and sprays,and yes I have even tried to drink coffee so I would just crash at night,but no my just will not let me go to bed,and relax. Since I have been out of school for a little while it's been a little better and I have been able to sleep usually 3 or 4 hours a night,but then I am back up before you know it and ready to start the day.

I really don't want to take medication for my bad sleeping habit because I am more into using simple things like special drinks or sprays but I don't know what else to do.

I simply need HELP,for this problem. That's the cold hard truth.

My bad sleeping habit could be because I have been stressed lately because of school,or because I just got a new job. I mean it's not like I a horribly worried about it so I don't know why that would be making me sleep bad.

Like I said I need help. If anyone has got anymore Ideas that don't include medicines to help me sleep than please let me know,I can use all the suggestions I can get. TRUST ME ON THIS ONE!

WHEN MY BRAIN HAS NOTHING TO SAY.

OK, all night I have been thinking about what to write about. I love to write,I really do it's a passion of mying so this should be no big problem. Right. Wrong. My brain has quit working tonight.

I really think my brain has a little mind of it's own for many reasons. I know I want to write tonight and I should be able to do it because I am all alone,sitting in on my beautiful chair next to my window looking up at the sky so it's the perfect. So why can't my brain just allow me to get the words that I want to say out?

I have so many things that I could write about the weather,the sky,my life TV. But no my mind says no tonight. I think my brain has an attitude problem.

Well,I may just put my brain to bed tonight. Maby it will actually let me do something tomorrow cause it has been like this all day. Lame brained.

Mother's On The Go.

So because the other day was Mother's Day, I decided to do this post on behalf of all the hard working Mother's out there as well as Grandmother's and Great Grandmothers and women who are like Mother's .

As I have told you all before,I have and still am very blessed that I grew up with so many loving women and men in my life. All those women like my Grandmother's taught me so much like how to cook(Which I love to do) and how to act like a lady around and out in public and so much more and for that I can never thank them enough for.

Mother figure's in our lives do so much for us. They pick us up when we fall down when we are little, they cook our meals,and stay up late to read us bed time stories,and tuck us in at night ,and are always there when we need someone to talk too.

Mother figures do so much and all the ask for in return is love and respect. So on behalf of that special Mother figure in your life make sure that you respect them and love them.

PS: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THOSE MOTHER'S OUT THERE.

An Ageless Limit.

Ok, so I know that we all age. It's one of those processes that we just can not help,BUT what happens when you try to stop the ageing process?

I know so many people that are just so afraid to admit their age and try to stop it by using all these aging treatments and things like that. I always thought that aging was just apart of life but apparently not.

I mean what are we afraid of? Why are we too afraid to let everyone see the real us? I mean the whole point of life is to let people see the real us and not to cover it up. If it was me and I am sure it will be in just a few years I would just yell out my age and not give a damn what people think. People are going to think what they want to think no matter how we look or what age we age so we might as well not even cover it up.

So this week and from now on I give all of you a challenge shall we say. The challenge is to go a whole week or even a whole month and just show who you really are. With no face creams to cover up aging or anything special being put on your face or body just show who you really are. And if someone ask your age shot it out and be proud of it and love it. I will be the first one to take this challenge and say that I am 20 almost 21 and proud of it. And loving it so much.

Set The Sun.

I am so obsessed with the sun going down and coming up,although I am usually not up to see it come up. For some odd reason I just love when I can go out to my favorite spot on my deck,sit on my chair,and watch the sun go down. Awww,what a relaxing time that is for me.

As long as I can remember I have been obsessed with the moon,stars,and the sun going coming up and going down. When I can be outside when the sun is going down that is my tranquil time. It's my time to write and think and just be myself when ever I want to.

I remember when I was younger, I would be at my grandparents house and we would sit lawn chairs in the grass, just my grandmother,grandfather and my self and would sit in the cool air and watch the sun go down and the sky go light up with all those beautiful colors and shapes. That was the one of the best things that we did when I was younger, and I still love it to this day. It's one of those things that I remember as a kid that will never go away and I thank God for that.

So, indeed I have just found out now why I LOVE to watch the sun go down. Plus it's a great time to have time for myself. My grandparents watched the sun go down with me,now it's my turn to share it with my kids (If I would ever have any).

Here is a suggestion, go outside on a beautiful night and just sit and look up with your family and loved ones. Look and the beautiful colors and shapes as the sun goes down yet again.. It's amazing.

The Easters I'll Never Forget.

Easter at my house has always been fun holiday. With the Easter baskets in hand and the eggs hidden we were ready. My grandparents use to take these little plastic eggs and put changes and candy in them and would hide them in the yard. Then when the all my friends and family would come by it was time to search for them.

So that was just one of many of my favorite Easter holiday memories. But come on this is a great holiday. With candy and baskets filled with all kinds of candy's and goodies and family and friends all around, it's one of those holidays that really make you think of those great time when you were a kid.

Easter at my house consist of me coming home from school,then on Easter we get up early and get ready and go to church,then we come home and sleep more because lets face it I get up way to early,then after we get up AGAIN , my family and friends come over and the hunt is on with the little ones in my family. After all that, we all gather for a meal that my family has made then me and my other half sit down and watch a movie and fall asleep.

So my family has a great big list that we do. Easter is great it really is. What are some of your Easter holiday traditions,and things that you can remember doing when you were a kid on Easter. Lets all share are memories.

A Lock Of All Locks.

So I just have to tell this story,and hopefully by the end of this story I will not be the only person in the world who has this problem

The other day I decided to get a new lock for my apartment door because the old one was broken,which is not the safest thing in the world. Anyways,I decided to get a new lock for my door,so I go to the store and got a brand new lock,and yes I was excited,why I'm not sure but I was. When I got back to my apartment I decided to put the new lock on the door right away because I wanted my door to lock. When I put the new lock on, I tried my new key that goes with the lock only to discover that my key did not work.

At first I had no idea why my key did not unlock it. I tried to turn the key and even jiggle the key a little bit but it simply would not unlock. So there I was with a new lock that did not unlock now. It seems I have the worst luck with lock of any sorts.

To make a long story short the reason that my lock did not work was because was because it was indeed broken. Just my luck that I would pick the lock out that is broken. I am starting to think that I am cursed when it comes to locks,because this all ways seems to happen. Maby it's not the locks maby people who makes that locks Lyndsie Proof's them. Hey it could happen. Oh well,next time I am making my other half buy and put on the lock that way if it doesn't work I can safely say" It wasn't me".

My Life In A Box.

Isn't it funny how we can have our lives summed up in one box? Now, you are probably wondering what I mean. Well I am going to tell you.

See just a few days ago I was going through some old things that I had in a cardboard box from when I had moved into my new apartment for college. All though I had some idea what was in the box I didn't know everything that was in it so, I decided to go through it anyways. Once I was in the process of going through this old box, I started finding things that I had not seen in such a long time.

For instance, I found a mask that I had made in art class in grade 4 or 5. Now that was such a long time ago and honestly I thought that it had been thrown out or even broken,but NO. It was in that box for some strange reason and yet when I seen it it borough back memories of when I was in grade school. Also in that box were photo's and things that brought back so many memories from my child hood.

See,it's so weird to me that some of our best memories can come out of something so simple like a box. They were great memories and I love remembering all those things but now it is time for new memories and maby a new box. Who knows.

Strong Willed Women.

I have always thought of my self as a strong women. With everything that I have gone through I have to say I really always have been strong, and I guess the reason that I am so strong is because I have been brought up too be.

In general I think all women are strong. If we look back on it(Sorry,I am a history nut) we have had so many strong willed women. Women,really have had to fight and be strong for a lot of things. Now,please don't miss interpret me I am not saying that men have had it easy,I am just saying that women tend to have to fight more for what we want and I really and not sure why.

That's one question that we got ask the other day in my class. So why is it that women always have to fight harder for the things that we want in life then men? Is it because we are not as strong, HECK NO. We are head strong. So what's the answer?

It's one of those questions that have stuck with me for a while so I just decided to blog about it,hoping that someone will give me some opinions on this.

Anyway that you look at it,all women are very strong. It doesn't matter weather others think you are or not it just matter what you think of yourself and if you see yourself as strong. So,I say lets get out there and show the world who is boss.

One Simple Word.

They say one simple word can't make a difference to someone. Well I know different and it's something that I have experienced first hand.

See,I was ONE of those people that always questioned how just one simple word could make a difference in someones life. Then I WAS one of those people that got to experience that and it made all the difference in the world for me,because I knew that someone cared enough about me and it made me realize how much I am not alone.

Honestly,we all just need someone to give us a kind word from time to time,or for someone to tell us that it's ok,or for someone to believe in us. It's weird for me because I really never hear someone just giving someone a kind word,when they really need it the most,and we really should.

It's just like the other day,I was really stressed for school,and work and,about my friends,and my family and how I really never get to see them except for holidays because I am so busy. I was just so upset and really the only thing I knew to do was to just cry. So that's exactly what I did until my boyfriend came home. It's amazing to me because the only thing he did was took my hands and held them,and just looked at me and whispered " It's ok" . Then I just put my head on his shoulder and finished crying and I felt so much better.

So you see someone saying just One or two simple words can make all the difference in the world to a person. Sometimes you will know it right off hand,and sometimes you may not know it till later but,it does make a difference.

So,the next time you see a person having a bad day,or someone that is really stressed,do yourself and them a favor and just give them a kind word or even a few kind words and watch that persons face just light up.It helped me when someone gave me a kind word so I know it can help someone else.

In My Own Little World.

Ok, so as of lately it's like I have been in some strange land . Now usually I am not in this strange land,but this week it has been especially bad. I have been so distracted and just like well in la la land if you want to say that.

Honestly I'm not sure why I have been out of it. I mean I have not been under any stress as of lately or anything like that so why must I just journey off to la la land?

Now don't get me wrong it's not like it is a bad place. In fact sometimes it's my home away from home. Sometimes it's the place where I go to when I am really stressed from school or work. So as you can see it's not such a bad place at all. In fact I really think everyone should have a little dream place to call their own. My little dream place is called La La Land and I love it and own it.

The only thing that I don't like about it,is when I got to my little world and it's the wrong time to go,like in the middle of class or in the middle of work. It's weird but I have been going there lately and I am starting to like it. I don't have any idea why but my mind wants me to go to La La Land so I am along for the ride.

So my thing is this,maby if everyone had a little dream world that they could go to just for them self's ,then maby,just maby we would have a less stress out world. Hey it works so maby it could work for you as well. Give it a shot,I bet you will be glad you did.

A Picture Perfect Scene.

Have you ever looked outside and seen a scene that was just so beautiful and just so amazing that it looked like it should be a portrait? Well I have and this week expically I have been noticing things like that. Actually this week I have been noticing a lot of things and been doing a lot of just looking around.

See,most of the time I am away for school so really all I see around me is buildings and people. When I come home however it's a different story.When I come home I see so much beauty and amazing things. It's things that have always been there but I just have never really token a good look at what is around me.

The things that I see are simple things, like the sun going down after it has rained, or the beautiful trees with the colors in them. Like I said just simple things. But those things to me look like they should be in a painting of some kind with all there beauty.

When I look at a painting I see color and beauty,just like when I look out side that's what I see. It's always amazed me to look out and see such amazing beauty,and too know that's it's always there,we just don't take the time to slow down and see it. So maby that's what we should all do that,just stop for five minutes out of everyday and just take time to look around and see all the amazing things around you. Who knows you might be surprised at what you see.

PS: Thers are some pics that I took. Enjoy

We Weren't Crazy.

I'm sure we have all done something crazy. I remember when I was in high school me and a bunch of my friends just took off too the open road. We have no idea why we just took off and whet off on a road trip but we just did. If I remember right that's how I got my first tattoo but that's a different story.

Anyways,when me and my friends took off we had no place we had to be. I still ask them today why we just decided to take off and the best answer I can come up with is we were young and we could.

See back then me and my friends were a lot of things and yes we did a lot of dumb things. We were the ones who would say something if things was not right, or the ones who would just take off out of the blue just to do it. We were the talkers and the note passers in class,and the cell phone talkers who would talk and txt while walking down the street. So me and my friends did a lot of things did a lot of things but if there is one thing I can say it's that were weren't crazy.

We may have been all those things but like I said differently not crazy. See I think sometimes we all need to do something a little nuts. It could be when we are in school like I did or even now .I think the reason we all need to do something a little nuts is because if we don't then we don't ever experience life. In my opinion that's the way we figure out life is from the things that we do. So go and do something a little nuts,just remember you can do something nuts and still not be crazy.

The Girl Behind The Mask.

Who is that girl behind the mask? Sounds like a pretty simple question,but for me it's not quite that simple. See, I have always felt like every since I was little,that I have had too hide behind this mask.

A lot of time I feel like I would just like to rip off the mask but how,is the question? I feel like there is a great person behind this mask but yet I can't let come off. It's like it's glued on or permeatly on my face.

I think the thing that I am afraid of is when I do take off my mask that I will be hurt,not physically but mentally. Although I have took en off my mask some and have been working on it it's still not all the way off. I don't want to take it off and be hurt. I feel like people say they know me on the inside,but they have no idea what I am or who I am on the inside.

So how do I get my mask off? Should I take it off and take the chance of getting hurt,or should I just leave it on and not take that chance? There is a great person underneath but I'm just scared. The plain hard truth I'm scared and I'm not afraid to admit it. I have been hurt before and had people go away from me before and I just don't want to be that way again.

So,yes I may have to lock away the true me and yes maby people are not seeing the true me,but this girl behind the mask is one that is not going to have hurt, this girl is going to be safe. I would love to show this girl. Maby one day,but for now this is just me, The Girl Behind The Mask.

God's Will.

Before I start this post I just have to say that I am not trying to force my religion on anybody so please don't take this post the wrong way.

These past few weeks have been so amazing. I am feeling a feeling right now that I have not felt in so long. It's a weird feeling but an amazing. These past few weeks I have a friend that has gotten me back into church,well that and of course GOD. See I go to this thing called DEEPER. Deeper is a night that a bunch of college students come together and just let God into our lives and speck the word of God.

It's an amazing thing that I just love. See I have not went to Church in a long time. Actually until now it's something that I had not thought too much about.

Since I have been going to church again,it's like everything in my life as fallen right into place. I have now since gotten questions answered that I have had for a long time,and a whole lot less stress than I had before.

I always knew church and the word of God and the power of prayer was amazing but I had no idea really what it was all about until I went back to Church. So I thank my friend for getting me back into church and I thank God,because without him none of this would have been possible.

This is all new for me and this is a roller coaster,but it's a great ride and a great life for me to hand myself over too and it's the only way I would have it.