My Guilty Mind.

Have you ever promised someone something and then went back on your word, Isn't it the worst feeling in the world we you go back on your promise? Well, I have to admit that I did, and now I am not sure what to do about it.

See over the past couple of mounts I have been having my share of bad luck like we all do sometimes. It has literally been one thing after the other. So a couple of weeks ago I decided to ask for some help(this is going to be another religious post, sorry but I have to get this off my chest.) So I decided to go to my room and just pray. I prayed for hope and I prayed to get through everything in my life and so far it has worked, but I still feel guilty that I did not keep my promise.

See I promised myself and others that if god let me get through everything that was going on in my life that I would go to church every weekend and read the Bible every day and I have to say that I have not keep my promise so I feel guilty. I mean I know I should not make excuses but I have just been so busy and I haven't had the time and then the times that I am not busy I am so tired from the day before that I just want to sit and relax.

I don't know what I should do. I really can not help that I work and do other things on Sunday. Like I said, I feel bad that I am making excuses,but what else is there to do?Should I just drop everything and do as I promised or should I try to go to church and do the things that I promised to do every other weekend? I just don't know what to do. So you can see why I am feeling very guilty. So someone please tell me what you think I should do. Give me some suggestions, please because I don't have a clue what to do.

Believe In Faith.

I am a big believer in miracles. I guess in a way I always have been. Lately, in the past say 6 or so mounts ago I have seen miracles happen all around me.I have seen somethings happen that I don't know how they happened but they did and do. Now maby I sound crazy and like I have said many times, maby I am, but there are somethings that have happen not only to me but to my family that is just scary but in a good way.

I will tell you what I mean. I had told you all in a couple of my post that my grandfather was very sick a couple of mounts ago. He had a massive heart attack and now only has 33% of his heart left. This was not his first one so that is why he only had 33% left of his heart left. This was probably the scariest thing that has happen to our family. We just did not know what to do. Basically all of my family stayed with my grandmother out at the hospital until he go better. It took a long time but he is back at home,doing well. I don't know what happen but all I know is that someone had to be with him when he had his heart attack.

Something had to do it in order for him to get better this fast. Maby it was the power of everyone being together, or maby it the doctors who helped him, I still believe though it was the power of prayer. We had the reverend of my grandparents church come and we would stand into a prayer circle and pray almost everyday. When we would do that it would give everybody goose bumps.

This is not the only miracle that we have seen,but it sure was one that I will never forget. Now, please don't get me wrong I am not trying to force my religious believes on anybody so please don't miss interpret me, but I am just simply saying that what has happen to my family and my grandfather over the last couple mounts has just been a plan out miracle,and a blessing. For my family and for me I can say that not only was it the power of prayer but it was everyone working to make my grandfather better.

So here is what I am going to say. Miracles are all around us, and it is a blessing when you have a miracle. What happen to my family,was not just for the heck of it,It was a blessing. Through the power of faith and hope it has borough my family closer as one and it has helped my family out so much . So the next time that you are in a tough spot just remember to keep your family and friends close and your faith and hope closer.