The Big Screen.

Lately I have watched a lot of movies. I go to the movie theater almost every time that a new movie comes out. I usually go with my boyfriend or just a group of friends. It is something I have done for a while. I love going to see movies. It is just so relaxing to me. I can just sit there and relax and I don't have to worry about anything or anybody. Which is what we all need to do sometimes really. I mean we all have something that we do to relax and going to the movies is my thing and I love it. The latest movies that I have seen that I just loved was "Letter to Juliet" and also "Toy Story 3". I mean how can you not love "Toy Story 3". It is such a good movie.

I think that the best part of going to the theater is that I can go with my family and friends,which is good. It is that time where I can spend some quality time with them. Since they live here in Canada and I moved away for college it is hard for me to see them, so when I do see them we always go out and see a movie. The only thing that really bothers me when I am at the theater is when I go and someone is talking in the middle of the movie, I am just thinking to myself "come on, shut up and let people enjoy the movie". I am not the person who will tell people to just be quite and stop talking. If someone is talking I will just look at them and not pay attention to them. It is just so rude to talk in a movie. I just don't know why people do it but it bugs me like nothing else.

Anyways back to the actually movie, I have see a lot of the movies that have come out this year, but the movie I think that was the worst this year was "The Last Song". I basically got dragged to this movie and I hated it all the way through. It was bad. If you do not want to waste your money do not get this movie. I am telling you it is worst movie I have see so far even worst then the movie"Marmaduke" which was not only the stupidest movie but it was a movie that made me ask my self why I paid to see it. Anyway like I was saying going to the movies is great,and so relaxing. It can just take away any stress that you have if it is a good movie. I have so many dvd's and when I see my parents and friends I always go back to school with at least 20 new dvd's. That and I am always getting packages from my parents with old classic dvd's. Those are the best.

To Fear Or Not To Fear.

Have you ever had a week where you just wanted to scream, well I did and it was this week and last week. It seems like nothing is going right. I just feel like I want to go out in the middle of the streets and let it all out. I hate feeling like this. I almost get mad at myself that I am letting everything get to me but I don't know what else to do. I don't know why this has to happen to me. It just seems like I can have a couple of perfect weeks and then something knocks me back on my butt again.

This month hasn't all been bad. Actually for the first couple of weeks it went good. I got out for the summer from school, I got to spend time with my family and friends , and I am going to the beach soon for a vacation which is what I need right about now.Now let me just say that I am not a person that looks at the glass half empty, actually I am just the opposite and try to look at the glass half full. Just in the last week or so has it gotten bad. Lately I have been having some technical problems with my computer(and as we all know I am not a computer expert),and I just got word today that my grandfather has to go in for another surgery to put a device in his heart to keep it working. I think that is the thing that makes me not only worry the most but scares me the most. I am just so scared right now for him and I am not afraid to admit that I am scared and upset that he has to go through something like that again. He has had to go through so much in the last couple of mounts, that I don't know how he does that.I don't know how he is just not scared. He is not scared at all, and I know that if I were in his shoes I would be. That is the biggest thing that I have been stressed over is his health,because there is always that factor of what if. Like I said I am so scared about this surgery, I just hope everything goes well.

I know that I should not worry so much and let things get to me but they do. I just feel like between this week and last week I want to go sit in a dark space and just cry. I want to cry because I am scared, and because I am mad at myself for letting me get this mad.It seems like every time I get mad I tend to cry and I am not sure why. I think it is because I just don't know what else to do, you know. I am really trying to look at the positive side to all this . The positive side is it will all soon be over soon.Thank God. I guess I just have to have faith and believe that everything is going to be ok with everything that is going on , and especially with my grandfather. Like I said I just feel like screaming, and I would do it to if I knew that people would look at me funny and I believe they would.Maby I will just stick with my first choice and sit in a dark space and just cry. That is probably what needs to happen. Hopefully this will be a better week than it was last week. I am just going to stay positive.

PS: This is one of my favorite saying and I try to live by it each and everyday.

Picture Perfect.

Lately I have been going through some old photo albums. They are picture's that I have not seen since I was little and some that I have not seen at all. They are pictures that have been put away in a box and have been in my grandparents closet. They bring back so many memories for me. One of the things that I remember is when I was little my grandfather would sit in his chair and I would climb up on his lap. We would go through the pictures together and he would tell me where they were taken and who was in the them. He could even tell me what year the photo was taken. I always looked forward when him and I would look at old photo's. He loves to tell stories and that was his time that he could tell me any story that he wanted, and I enjoyed it and still enjoy it very much to this day.

Now that he is older he still does that. Even when I was looking back at old memories (which is one of my favorite things to do) he was telling me who was in the pictures and where it was taken. Photo's are such a great thing to look back on. It can bring back memories that are happy and it can even bring some tears when you look at pictures that are of sad times,(which is what it did to me)I have told you all in so many post that I don't like to cry very much, but even today when I was looking at some more old pictures I was just sitting here crying, because I was remembering things that had happen when I was little. When you look at old pictures to me it is like a book about yourself if you really think about it. It's kinda weird now that I look back, because when I was little, I could never understand why my family and friends like to record and take pictures of not only me but special events that happened. In fact I though it was kinda silly that they had a camera in their hands every five seconds,now I am glad that they did. Now I can go back and remember the good and not so good times in my life.

Now that I am older I have come realize that those memories in those photo's are special and priceless. I don't have any children but when I do, those are the pictures that I can tell them what they were from and who were in the pictures, like my grandfather did when I was little and like he still does to this very day. I think the sad thing for me that really makes me cry when I look at these pictures is that I know that I can never get these memories back,but then I realize that I have new memories that I can look at and remember. I take a lot of pictures and I know that some of my friends and even my boyfriend sometimes does not know why I take so many,but it is because I want to have those memories and pictures that I can hold on to and look at. Memories are so important to have. Everyone should cherise the memories that you have with your family and friends. Take the time to sit down with your family and just go through some old photo's. It can bring back so much. It can bring out emotions that have not been out in a long time. I know there is times when me and my boyfriend will just sit on the couch and I will show him old photo album's and tell him stories of what they were . I am thankful for the memories that I have in those photo's and I am even more thankful for the new ones I have now.

That Special Time.

The summer time is so special. It's the time where I am finally going on my vacation. I haven't been in along time and I am so excited. Me and my boyfriend are going to the beach and I can't wait. He always makes it so fun when we go somewhere like that. We pack a lunch,and eat on the beach when the sun goes down,and he holds me and we watch the water come up over the sand. It is the best thing in the world to me.

We have always had a good time together but when we go to the beach it makes it so much more fun. We are only going for a couple days but it is just enough time for me to relax. We will be going down a day earlier than my family to just get us time,then we will meet my family the next day and have some time with them. When we go down to the beach, we always go shopping ,I mean how can you go to the beach and not go shopping, and then we all walk on the beach and look at the waves, and sometimes we go on boat rides ,and go swimming. For me the beach is just amazing and relaxing. It brings me back to when I was younger and my grandparents would take me. I remember how I would build sand castles ,and go in the water,so for me it brings back a lot of memories.

I can't wait till we go. It should be amazing. I think the best part of the whole trip,is that I am going with the people I love ,and the man I love the most. It is always an adventure when we go so I am sure that this time will not be any different than any other time. Everybody should just take a vacation. We all need to get away sometimes. We just all need to get away sometimes from,work,school and sometimes life and a vacation is the perfect way to do that. I know that when I come home from the beach, I am always relaxed,sunburned, but relaxed. I think this is going to be the best beach trip yet. I can't wait till we watch the sun go down over the water, that is the most beautiful thing to see when you go on a trip like this, well to me it is.

The Innocent One.

The other day me and my boyfriend was watching tv when a commercial came a cross . It was about animals that have been beaten and abused. You know the ones that I am talking about, the ones where they talk about the animals that have been staving and are hurt and are on their own left to basically die. I don't know how people can do that to an animal.The are just so innocent and do nothing to anybody. Animals don't need to be hurt and starving and under weight. They need to be loved and helped just like people need to be loved and helped.

Why do these people do that to these animals? I mean I know this is going to sound weird,but I think animals have feeling too. This is something that I have felt strongly about since I was little. I have always loved animals, and I still do. I remember when I was little, we always had cats,and dogs,and birds,and fish. I loved all kinds of animals,and like I said I still do. I have even rescued a few of my pets that I have right now,from the outside. I have a lot cats and dogs and one of my cats that I have, I rescued from the outside.. When we got him he was under weight,and hungry, and cut up. Now he is just as crazy as ever, and he acts like he runs the place.

I just think that animals are the innocent ones If people are going to get a pet than they need to learn how to take care of them. People have to remember that animals have feelings too. They don't need to be in a place where they are hurt and abused all their lives. They need to be in a home where they are loved an respected. This is one of the hardest things to talk about for me because I have so many feeling on this subject. If you think about it don't animals want just the same things that people want, love respect, and someone to care for them. If I can tell people one thing it's that pets are great to have, they can be loving and beautiful animals, if you let them be,but you have to give them a chance and not throw them out like a piece of garbage,when they miss behave,or don't act right. Like people you have to give them a chance. People get very attached to their animals,I even know people that think of their animals as their children. I may not get that far,but I do think a lot of my pets and I love each and everyone of them no matter how spoiled they get.

PS: Just to let you all know this is one of the cats that I rescued, that I was talking about in my blog.

The Lazy Day.

Have you ever woke up one day and just felt so tired? Well that's kinda how I felt today. I just felt so tired and I felt so weak, and I don't know why. I hate feeling like this. I just feel like I want to sit around and watch tv on the couch and drink coffee all day. I feel like when I am lazy,I am helpless, and I am not helpless what so ever.

I knew something was wrong today when I didn't want to go shopping with my best friend. I am always up for shopping so I knew that today was going to be one of those days where I just wanted to be lazy. I think that everyone has those days, it's those days where you would rather stay in bed or sit around and watch a movie instead of getting out and having fun with your friends. Why do we have those days I wounder? I mean we do not like feeling like we are helpless, so why do we act like it? We could say it is the weather, or that we just needed a day to do what we wanted to do. For me I am just going to blame it on myself and say I just needed some me time. Which is true sometimes. We all just need a day where we can have some me times, right ladies. I mean if we didn't have me time, sometimes ladies, we would all be going insane,so it's good to have that me time.

I think that it is good to have that time where you can just relax and reflect on the day,that you have had. I don't think that one day is bad of being lazy and helpless, as long as we don't take it to the extreme. Like I said maby today was just my day to be lazy for what ever reason. I don't like days like today,but maby this is just a day where I can be refreshed and just reflect on my week that I have had. The only think that really sucks about today is that my lazy day just fell on a day where I have got ten million things to do. Well I guess that I will just have to make them up tomorrow, well maby.

The World Around Us.

Have you ever noticed the world around us?Have you just really took a good look at this world we get to say is ours. Well, I can't say that I have seen all of the world, but what I have seen is so beautiful. Sometimes I don't think people really appreciate this world around us and they should. It can be so beautiful and so amazing if you open your eyes and just take the time to look at it.

I think that everyone should just take the time to just sit out under the stars and moon and just look up, you would be so surprised at the things you can see. I also think people should just take the time to go traveling, or go see the different countries, even just go on a hike and see the wilderness or even go to the beautiful beaches, wherever you go it shouldn't matter as long as you just get out and see the world for yourself, instead of just in books or the television. Life is too short to just stay in one place. To really appreciate the world around us, people need to get out. You would be amazed at some of the things that are out there. There are things out there that people can't even dream about. It's one of those things you really have to see for yourself.

Now don't get me wrong, I am not saying that you have to go everywhere in the world,but I am just saying that we should just get out there and see some of it. I just mean don't just stay in one place all your life, because like I said, life is way to short for that. If I can give people another piece of advice, its that we need to all open up our eyes a little bit more and be thankful for what we have around us.This world is full of new and exciting things, and if we open up our eyes to it this world can show us things that we have never see before. Try it one time, don't just take my word for it, you might be surprised on what you see if you do.

That Special Someone.

When I was growing up I never thought that I would find that special someone. I thought that I wanted to grow up and stay single. At that time I was so young and so in mature. I mean I thought that is what I wanted. I thought that it would be fun to stay single and just grow up and I would be fine without a man. Now I have come to realize that I was wrong. So wrong.

Now that I have because older I realized that I don't know where I would be without my boyfriend. He is such a great man and I love him very much. He is the one where if I need a shoulder to cry on he is always there,he is also the one where I can also tell him anything and I know it's just going to stay between us,and only us. He is my best friend and just and the best person,that I want to spend the rest of my life with.We found each other in 8th grade and we have not lost sight of each other since.

We were talking the other day and I ask him if he believes that we will make it last in our relationship. He ask me what I meant, and I proceeded to tell him that my great grandparents found each other when they were very young, It was back so many years ago,they had gotten married when she was 13 and he was 16,(back then you could get married young) and I told him that their relationship lasted for 70 years or so, until my grandfather passed away in 02. I ask him do you think that we will last that long and still be in love that many years from now, and he said without even missing a beat, something so beautiful that it made me cry, he said "I know we will because you are the best thing that ever happened to me and I am never letting you go". That was so romantic of him to say that. That is why I love him so much. My great grandparents relationship gave me confidence that if they can be together for that long, I know that we can too and so can anybody else.

Growing Up Too Fast.

You know how when you are little and your parents are suppose to take care of you, and then as they get a bit older you take care of them, well when I was little it was not like that. When I was little I had to really learn how to take care of myself and I grew up kinda fast because of that. I have told you all in so many post that I have never really though of my parents as my parents, I have always though of my grandparents as my parents.

I think that the reason that I think of my grandparents like my parents is because they helped raised me. Me and my parents never really got along, that is why I have had to grow up fast. I have always felt like I have had the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am the one who if someone is sick I take care of them, or drive them to there special places that the need to go,ect. For some reason I didn't mind having to grow up fast. I had help from my grandparents, They tough me how to do a lot of things. Things that I know I could not have learned from myself, things like walking and how to cook and how to talk and,even helping me with my schooling.

Like I have also said in my other post, I did have a good childhood, but I just wish that I would not have had to grow up so fast, If it would not have been for my grandparents I would have never made it this far. Even now that I am away for school they are helping me everyday. They give me words of wisdom and advice when I need it. I love them so much for that. I don't know if there will every be a way I can repay them for all they have done, but if there was a way, I would do it in a second. I guess that I have never really realized how luck I am, until now.I don't know how many people out there has had to grow up fast but,I know I have and with the support of my grandparents I did it and still doing it.Take this advice and stay close to the people who are nearest and dearest to you because family is what really counts right?

Ready Or Not.

I use to think thank that when I was little It was the best time of my life. I mean I had a great childhood and I have great memories that will last forever from when a child. I was very loved and very spoiled (thanks to my grandparents and great grandparents). I just though that when I was little that I was never going to grow up. I wanted to stay a child forever. I mean come on, no job that you had to go to, no house hold chores, I mean I was spoiled child, and I will admit that. Then I went into my teen age years. Those are always fun.

When I was in my teen age years I wanted to be older, I mean I remember telling my friends that I wish that I was 18 and when I was I was going to move out and be so far away from everything. Now don't get me wrong, I mean I was not a bad person growing up I mean I was not like that. However there were a few times where I would have my days where I would just be mad at the world. I would just be mean to everyday. I don't know why I was mad at everybody but I was. My teen years was so crazy but also exciting. I mean I grew up, I graduated from high school and that was one of the biggest thing from my teenage years.

Now I am 20 I am growing up and it's a whole new start to my life. I am in my 2 year of collage and just starting to get life. I thought that it was crazy being a teenager. Now with everything going on in my life I can say that I miss my teenage years,and even child years. Don't get me wrong, I love my life now. I have got a great job, and I am going to a great collage, and I have my friends and family who support me everyday with whatever do, and a crazy but loving boyfriend

I just wish that I would not have rushed my younger years. I should have listened to my grandparents , when they said "don't wish your life away,because one day you are going to want it back". I think that If I can give people one piece of advice and especially teenagers it's "Don't wish your life aways". Enjoy your life and don't rush it.

I Will Always Be There.

I have a friend that is going through some tough times right now. She is such a great friend and I love her to death. I remember when my grandfather had his heart attack she was there. Actually it was the first time I had even talked to her. She was a shoulder that I could cry on and a friend that I could talk too. I think that is what makes her such a good friend, is that I can talk to her when I need someone to talk too. Lately though she has been going through some tough times. So much things has been happing to her, Its almost like 2010 is not the year for her, like I thought that It wasn't the year for me. Me and her are kinda in the same boat.

I feel like I would love to do more for her but sometimes I just don't know how. I have told her so many times that I will do what ever she needs me to do for her, and that she can call me when she needs to talk. God knows she has been there for me,so many times. See I feel like so many people have said that they are my friends and then they betray me. Well this friends doesn't I don't know how many people have a friend like that but they are good to have. I know for me I just need to talk to someone sometimes and she is someone I can just call and talk too when I need too.

Like I said I am the type of person that when you are my friend you are a friend for life to me. I love my friends and family.I like to be there for people and comfort people when they are down. I guess that is the way I have always been. I really hope my friend know that I am there for her when ever she needs me. Like I said I am not afraid to say that I love my friends. I think sometimes people lose sight of good friends. We should always keep track of our friends and family. Friends are so important to have, I can't stress it enough. Even if it's just a friend that you have just meet like my friend was. Always be there for your friends cause you never know when they might need you or when the tables are turned and you will need them.

The Special Day.

Father's day, what a great day. It's a day where father's and grandfather's and the men that have been there with you since you were born are celebrated. This is a time where you can thank those special men for being there and helping you your whole life. These are the men that have helped taught you how to walk, and how to talk, and have been there when you needed to talk, or when you just needed to a friend. Ladies we need to be thankful for the special men that have been in our life's and in our kids life's as well. For those of us who don't have kids, we just need to be thankful for the men in our life's, I know that I am.

As I told you all in a preview's post I have always had a dad and I do love him, but I have always for some reason though of my grandfather as a dad. He was there when I was growing up. He is really the one that I seen the most. I love both of them though with all my heart. I remember when I was little and we lived at my grandfather's and grandmother's house my grandfather would come home after a long day and I would get up on his lap and he would rock me to sleep if I was having trouble going to sleep for my nap. Or he would tell me stories and just when my parents and grandmother was not looking he would give me a cookie. That was always the best part. See with me it's like I have good memories of when I was little. I loved my childhood. I have such good memories.

Like I said we should all be thankful for our father, grandfathers,uncles, great grandfather's and all the men that has helped raise us. Not only should we be thankful for them but also the mother's , I don't think that they get all the appreciation that they deserve so I would also like to take the time to salute them as well. We appreciate the things that you do and how you have been in our life's. We should always tell the people we love the most, that we love them and thank you for raising us . Again I would just like to say Happy Father's day to all the special men in our life's right now, no matter who it is.

The Adventures Of Summer.

Summer time is finally here, and I am so excited, I have been wanting summer to come since the winter time(which I also love). This means it times for sun burns, sun block, the beach, family outings, and a brake from collage. I think for me at least the best part would be the beach. I love the beach, I love the water,period. My friends would tell me that It was like I was born to swim. I love the way it feels on my skin, and I like when its late night and you go walking on the pier and you hear the waves hitting the sides of the pier that is so beautiful and plus it is more beautiful when you see the sun going down at the beach too..

Like I said I love the summer time. I know for me at least for some god for saken reason it makes me have a better attitude and a more positive outlook on life. I guess for me the reason that it makes me have a more positive attitude is because in the winter there is times when it snows and you get trapped in your house and people start getting on each others nerve's, with summer you can be out and it's like your free. I love to be kinda wild in the summer. See with me it's like it's twice as good because first of all I can go on a road trip and vacation with my family and especially my friends and also because I was born in the summer,( June 12) to be exact.

I just think that everyone has that favorite season,and mying is summer. OK I know it's kinda weird to have a favorite season,but you have to know that some are so much better then others. Summer is supposed to make people happy. This is suppose to be where you can go on vacations, and go to the beach, and go to party's ,and just have fun with your friends and family. That's what really we should do in the summer time.Just have fun. Well I hope everyone has great 2010 summer, and for those of us who got out of collage for the summer time have a great 2010 summer brake. Better enjoy it while it last cause at some point collage starts again, and we all know how fun that is .

Being Thankful.

I was on my computer today(like I am everyday) and I watched a video that was on the WorldVision Canada site, that was so beautiful but so sad in a way. It had one of my favorite actors in it Colin Mochrie. It was about his journey to the Dominican republic with world vision. It was a video of him talking to this little girl name Nana. This little girl was telling him that sometimes they go to bed without food.Which made me so sad, because the little girl was saying that she does not even go to school because there is no one to pay for her schooling.

It was just a beautiful but a sad video that made me cry, because I was thinking to myself, wow how our they not complaining or why don't they say something like I know I would. It really makes me think that we take so much of this world for granted. We take the clothes on our back or having a roof over our heads at night, or food or even water and family and our friends for granted. These children and there familes don't have what we have. They don't have a lot of the simple things that we take for granted everyday. I can't tell you how many times I have heard people complain about stupid things. I know that I do it to. I did it when I was in school, telling my parents that I didn't want to go to school, or missing school for stupid reasons. Those kids over there would kill for a school.

I just feel so guilty and so bad for those kids, I feel like first of all that I wish there was more that I can do. Another reason I feel so bad is because I feel like those kids and especially that little girl that Colin was talking too did not complain one little bit. All she said was that she would like to go to school, and she wants to wait till she is older to get married. That is not a lot to ask for. I feel like we should not be compelling about anything. There is so much in this world that we just complain about, over there they have a lot more things to worry about, like how they are going to eat,or worrying about having to get married so young.We need to be thankful for what god gave us instead of sweating the small things in life. I don't think people understand how lucky we are until you see a video like that, or see it for yourself. Everyone needs to go to the web site"WorldVision Canada" and watch that video of Colin Mochrie with that little girl name Nana. I am telling you It will make You cry. It did me. Good job Colin.

Dream On.

Is there ever a place that you have wanted to visit. I am talking about a place that you could have never see you self going,and still can't see your self going. Well I know for me I have always wanted to travel. I love to to travel, I really do. I think that it is so amazing getting out there, and seeing the world for yourself instead of in magazines or on television. When I was really little I always told my grandparents that I wanted to go travel and see the world, and that when I grew up I was going to be something that I could see the world.

If I could visit one place It would be either Scotland, or Ireland. I think that both of theses place's would be great. I would like to visit Scotland just because I think it would be so cool to see the people their and what they are like and also how there land is different from ours. I think that the reason that I would like to visit Ireland is because first of all I heard that it is just breath taken there and also because I heard that they have some amazing food their. I don't know that I will ever get to see those place,but I can always dream. At least I know that I have a dream. I think that everyone should have a dream like that sometime in there life like that.

I know that there is a lot of places out there that I would like to visite and I am sure they are all amazing . And who knows I may get to them through my life. I never know really before I try. I think that this is another point that I am trying too make. Never give up on your dreams. Weather it is traveling around the world, or trying to be something that you have always wanted to be . No matter what your dream is you should never give up on it. That is what my grandparents have always told me and that is what I tell myself now. And now I know never to give up on something that I have dreamed about .

To Judge Or Not To Judge.

I have a quote that I live by each and every day, it helps me everytime I start to judge my self my quote is "You are your own worst critic". I don't know how many people agree with that but I know that I sure do. I never use to judge my self this hard so why do I do it now? When I was younger my grandparents and great grandparents use to tell me that I could do it , and that is all they would have to tell me and I would believe them and not think a second time about it. Now if someone tells me that, I still sit there and think to myself "is that true, can I really do it, or are they just telling me that to make me feel better.

I know that maby I should not judge myself so hard but i do, and i think that sometimes we all judge our selfs like that sometimes. I really do think though that my quote is true. You are the one who judges your self the hardest. Yeah I know that other people my judge you and say things like they know your life,but those are only words, and you know the old quote"sticks and stones my brake my bones,but words my never hurt me". When we judge our selfs it's like the words are written in stone and we can never get away from them, well that's how I feel at least. Just like the other day, I was doing a paper for school. I knew that I had written it right, I knew that I had,but yet I still judged myself. I was criticing my self because I though well nobody is going to like it or I am going to get a bad review on it, and I got an "A" on it and a great review on it.

I think that is why I say I live by my quote "You are your own worst critic". I don't like to judge my self or to think twice about something that I do. I have gotten a lot better now that I have entered collage. I think that collage has made me relize that you can't always judge your self cause if you keep doing it then you will judge your self your your whole life, and you will never get anything accomplished. I even have that quote posted up in my house and room. Now everytime that I start to be too hard on my self all I have to do is look up at that quote and think to my self that I am doing it right and not to think twice about what I am doing too. I also know that I have family to tell me what a good job I am doing. I love having the support of my family. Thank God that they are behind me with everything that I do. Isn't family great.

The Pack Rat In Me.

Ever noticed when you go shopping, sometimes you tend to just leave the bags sit, and then just sometimes they tend to just keeping growing and growing until you eventually have a lot of the same thing. Well I an a person who can go shopping and even know I have ten of them sitting at home I just pick up another because its on sale, or even because it's a different color. I know I shouldn't but who can go by a sale and not love it,I know I can't . Even if there is not a sale I tend to pick up different things that I already have.

Another thing that I am really bad for is I like to keep everything that my friends and family gives me. Now I am not saying that I don't throw things away sometimes, because I do clean quite a bit and go through things a lot(expecially when I am board), but I just keep a lot of things. Just like the other day, I was going through my file cabinets, again just cause I was board, and found some cards, that my family had given me for different special events. I bet you they had to be from when I was 3 or 4 but I had keep them, and I have no idea why I keep them.

I do the same things with clothes and the biggest with purses and wallets. I bet you I have probably 100 purses and 100 wallets. I love to make sure I have on for every year, and every season, and I need to make sure that I have my special ones for special events. I can't help my self. I just see them In stores and think to my self (wow, I have to have that) then I pick it up. Like I said I can't help myself. I love to shop. I know that I should maby clean out my closet and go through my purses and wallets and everything else that I have bough in bulk but I don't. Between work and class and family, and friends I just never find the time. Even my friends sometimes call me a pack rat. I hate that. I am not a pack rack, I just no a good deal when I see it. Well maby I will go through and just look at the things that I have and pair down, just a little. Maby I should also limit the things that I buy and not go to so many sales. That way my friends and family can't call me a pack rat.

Art The Ultimate Life Story.

Have you ever noticed when you look at a piece of art, and you know that it tells something about your life. Well that is kinda how I am. I love art,I love any kinda of art. When I was little I even took art classes and went to an art camp. Like I said I love art, I love to look at portraits from Da Vinci or Van Gogh or even Monet. I don't why but every time I look at a portrait I try to see what the artist was feeling at the time when they were doing the painting.

I think that one of the reasons that I like art, is because to me it's everything we do,and it's all around us.What I mean is that art is a way for people to express themselves. It doesn't matter if you do it through dance or painting or acting or it can just be expressed through the way you move your body,but art is all around us. Art to me is when you look outside and see a flower growing or waking up to the sun or even seeing a flag fly outside your window. To me that is art. There are some people, even my friends that have told me that they don't get art like I do.

Sometimes I don't think that people give it enough of a chance, and people should.

Art can be a great thing. It can be so beautiful and so relaxing when you let it be. I really wish that people would give it a chance. It can even tell stories about the artist life if you look at it long enough. It can tell about the hard times that they might have been through or even the happier times that they went through. It can tell you what mood they were in when they painted the portraits just by the colors that they use. Everybody should at least give art a chance because it might surprise you. It might put you to a whole new way of thinking that you didn't think before. Who knows. I know for me it makes me think so much more deeper than I did before and to me that is what makes good art. When it really makes you think and leaves you wondering.

The Lucky One

Growing up I had a great child hood. I had family that was always around me and friends that would be there whenever I needed them. For me I knew that I could go to my family and tell them anything. I could also go to my friends and tell them whatever I wanted to tell them,and I knew that it would stay between us and not go to anybody else.

I maby didn't know then that when my family or friends would get after me for something it would be to teach me a life lesson years later. Sometimes my family would get after me when I would run at into the road was I was younger. I didn't think that it was fun when they got at me when I was younger, but now I realize that it was because they were afraid that I was going to get hit. Now I am thinking them for getting after me for that. Or when I would go out with my friends and sometimes my head would get to big, like I am sure it does for everybody sometimes. My friends would tell me sometimes that I need to get my head out of the clouds and come back down to earth. I really needed to hear that sometimes. (As do we all sometimes)

I think what I am trying to get at is this, I grew up luck. I sometimes maby thought when I was younger that I didn't because maby I didn't get all the things that I wanted or I got into trouble once in a while,but I was one of the lucky ones. I realize now that the reason that I was so luck is because of everybody always being close to me, and I had a roof over my head(always) and clothes on my back and there was always food on the table. Now that I am older I realize that not everybody in this world has this. I see it on the news all the time. I see men, women, kids,even pets homeless. They don't have the thing me and you have. Sometimes they go days without the things that me and you take for granted sometimes. Like running water, or clean clothes, food, home,and there is times that when I am out I hear people complaining about the simple things. So really what I am trying to tell people is don't take your life for granted . Be thankful for what you have and be thankful for you family and friends. And try not to sweat the small things in life. I know that I think god each and everyday for what I have and pray for the ones that don't have anything.

Suprise

Well today was my birthday celebration. It was so much different then what I thought it was going to be. I had visioned a dinner with a few family and friends gathered around me, but nothing like it was. A couple of weeks my parents ask me what I wanted for my birthday. I told them "Nothing Big" just a couple of family and friends. I even told them that they did not have to get me cake, but you know parents, always wanting to make things good for their kids.

When I got up this morning and went down stairs to talk to my parents I got told to "Hurry up and get dressed" I though ok. I really didn't think to much of it, I just thought they were taking me out to grab a bite at my favorite restaurant. What I didn't know was that all my family and friends would also be there. As we are driving to the restaurant I said to my parents "now it's just going to be us right no body else, they said yes only us" I really believed them. I should have known better.

As we get to the restaurant and go in the door. I see some of my friend then as we are walking I am starting to see more and more of them. Now I was starting to get why were there. As we turned and went down the long hall way I see alot more of my family and friends, and they are all saying"SURPRISE" I thought wow that was a surprise. I didn' t see any of this coming. As we sit down at our table I see the wait staff at the restaurant start coming to the table, it was like 10 people that came and they all started sing that classic happy birthday song to me. I had been suprised. I really did not know what to say,except for thank you and wow. It just prove to me how much my family really loved me and cared for me, to do this ,but I am so getting them back when it's their turn just watch and see.

Music The Story Of Our Life's

Have you ever lisiten to a piece of music or even watched a music video and though wow, that was the story of my life. I think everybody at least on time or another has had a song that has been special to them. It could be a song that you danced to at your wedding or a song that was played at prom or even a song that you remember as a kid. Well I know I have heard many songs that have been special to me or that have told a story about one part or another in my life.

There are many different types of music out there that can tell your life story. Music like rock, or county or classic, techno,pop,ect. I know that for me it's music like some pop and country. One of the bands that have music in the pop music genera that tell my life story is "nickleback" I don't know what it is about them, but alot of their music really does tell about some point or another of my life. I think that sign of good music is when it moves you and it brings back a good or a bad time in your life.

Like I said music is everwhere, It's on tv, and on the internet and in your car. It's a great stress relif when you have had a bad day or even a busy day, or happy day,ect. Music can be a great thing, and with so many differnt types out there it is easy to find what you are looking for. My advice to people would be this: When you are by yourself try and lisiten to some music, or go even go through some old records and try to listien to the words of those songs and see if they tell a story about your life or see if you remember a good time or even a bad time in your life. Who know you might be suprised on what you find. You never know,until you try it.

Two Steps Foward And One Step Back

This year(2010) has been crazy. With family,friends, work,and school it seems like something is always going wrong. Sometimes I feel like I can get really far in the day or the week and then something goes wrong and knocks me on my butt. I know it happens to everybody at least once or twice in there life, but it seems like recently it been happing to me, alot.

Just like the other day when I was at work.I thought I was doing so good. I was keeping busy and cleaning, and just trying to make the day go by faster. I thought I was doing a good job. I had not said anything to anybody, I was friendly with the people that had come in and on a plus it was a beautiful day outside, the sun was shining and the birds were singing and it just made the day a more perfect day untile the boss called me into the office. I knew that it's never good to have the boss to call anybody into the office. As I am in the office the boss explained to me that someone had complained about me. As I am lisiting I am setting there in shock. "Someone complained about me, are you sure you have the right person I asked" the boss just simple shook their head and said yes it was you. They told me that I need to go home. "How could this happen I ask my self" I was doing so good. It had been a great day and my week had been doing so good. I thought I was actually doing great job.

This just proved my point. I actually thought the week was doing great,until this happen then I wasn't so sure. I was just devestated. I didn't know what to do. I the one who has never been let go from anything had been let go from a job. Not only was sad,but it was also so stupid that I had let this happen. Then something good happen. When I got home from what use to be my job, I stated calling around tring to find a job. I needed one and needed one bad. Then one place that I called told me to come in for an interview. After the interview she said well thanks for coming in you are hired. I was so excited. Not only that day had I been fired I had also gotten hired an hour after that. Which proves that sometime you have to take Two steps back and one step foward. And sometimes you might fall on you butt, but never give up on what you believe in.

The Ulitmate Keep Up

Have you ever seen someone with their pants hanging half way off there behind? Well I see it 24 -7 and I am tired of seeing it. I even have to see it at work where you are suppost to be well dressed. Before I started dating I always thought it was a guy thing. Now that I am dating I have come to relize that not all guys do it. I am not sure why guys like to have their pants hanging half way off their behinds.

Is it the new trend of the year's to come, because if it is then we got alot to worry about. I can't see how people do that. It's not like I want to be setting down for lunch or even out with my friend's to see a movie and see some guys butt instead. I have co-workers that walk around with them down to where I can see there underwear, and I am always telling them "Pull you pants up, no body wants to see that". Which is true who wants to see another persons underwear at least I don't.

I think that sometimes people do it just to be funny and cool, and "newflash" its not funny or cool, and trust me women don't find it attractive at all, in fact some of us think it's kinda stupid and alot dumb. What do guys think is going to happen if they pull them up. Do they think the world is going to friend, or even women will not find them attractive. Well I hate to tell you guys but when your pants are down then women don't find you attractive and the world is not going to end if you keep them pulled up like respectable guys. You can have your pants pulled up and still be a good guy. I really think that people need to start wearing belts again. I mean isn't that the whole reason why they were invented in the first place. Guys take this lesson from me and KEEP YOUR PANTS PULLED UP.

The Blame Game

Have you ever been blamed for something that you know in your heart was not true, well I have and now I know why if feels so bad. I have been having problems at work with my co- workers blaming "silly" things on me. Things that I would never do in a million years,but I get blamed for it. I don't know why and I just really don't care. The thing that hurts me the most is that people would think that I would do some of the things that they are saying I did. Things like disrespecting people or relaxing on the job, or even being late to work, those are just some of the things that people are saying that I did.

I nerver knew why people would single one person out and blame something that they did not do on them but now I know why, people just do it to A):be mean B):to just have something to do. Sometimes I feel like people just sit around and say "today I want to blame someone for something but who" I hope that is not the case, but if they do people really need to find another way of keeping busy because it is really getting old (very fast).

I really would like an answer to my question and someone plese tell me why in this world do people do such a mean thing and single one person out and blame them. I know in my heart that I would never do anything to anybody, I have been brought up in such a great and lovling way and I would never do some of the things that I was and am being blamed for.I know better. I never knew how much it hurts for someone to blame something on you that you did not do until now.

The Best Of Both World's

I was talking with my cousin the other day, we are very close(We are only 3 days apart).when I relized I have the best of both worlds.My family is everything to me. I don't know where I would be today if it would not be for my family. They have tough me so much over the years, and put me in line when I did something wrong or when my head would get to big. I have a big family so i was always learnig something, anything from how to be polite or how to take care of myself. Now that I am older I have come to relize that the lessons that I would learn from my family would help me in my life with my friends.
I have amazing friends. We are always doing something on the weekends, weather it is just going out to see a movie ( which happens often) or just jokeing with them over the phone or at work. I have come to relize that sometimes your friends can teach you a life lesson with out you even knowing it. I have had a really good friend since I have started working at my job. She is such a great person and helps me whenever I need it or when my head gets to big. The other day we went to a movie and before the movie started I was telling her about how stressed I was and without even missing a beat she said "Your only as stressed as you let your self get". I didn't think much about it until later that night when was in bed later that night, but she is right.Friends can teach you a lesson without you even knowing it .
Your always learnig something from someone. Dosen't matter if its from your friends or family. Sometimes they are doing it without you knowing it. It dosn't matter who you are or even how old you are just take the time to learn from people cause it can help you when you least expect it and then you can say you have the best of both worlds.

Politeness As We Know It.

I remember when I was just a little bit younger probably even as young as 3 or 4 how my family would teach me how to be polite. I would say yes mama or yes sir, or no mama or no sir or thank you or even no thank you thats how I was brough up. I had to be polite. So why is now everywhere you go people seem to be getting more and more disrespectful? People don't seem to say things like that anymore. I really never here people say things like " No thank you" or even a simple "Thank You" I would even take a "Have a nice day" I don't even hear that anymore. So what happend that made people stop acting so polite? I miss those days .

Stress The Never Ending Story

Lately I have been very stressed. With collage and family and work it seems like it never going to end. So why is that everywhere I go it seems to just get worse. Like the other day when I was in class the tecacher ask a question, out of everbody he ask, me the only one that didn't have her hand up and he ask me. I didn't know the answer so he just made me look like an stupid person in front of everybody. Thats what I am talking about he just added to it. So why do people not get that when we are stressed we just need to be left alone. It seems like when I am stressed everybody wants me to talk about it. I tell people leave me alone, and they don't, but when I am not stressed they don't want talk to me , so why is that? Sometimes I think that people have just got things all wrong. It should be when you are not stressed that people want to talk to you and when you are stressed they leave you alone . When I am stressed my boyfriend will just come over very nice and gentle and say "Say honey I know your stressed but just remember I love you" and go about his happy way. I wish there could be more people like that!