Habits,Habits,And More Habits.

We all have habits. Things that we don't mean to do but do anyways. Me my force of habit is cracking my knuckles. I have been told a million times not to crack my knuckles because it is bad for me,but I am stubborn so I do it anyways.

Even when I was younger I was told not to crack my knuckles just because it would give me problems down the road. I was always getting yelled at because my force of habit would come in and I would crack my knuckles and sometimes not just my knuckles but my back,hands,neck,knees,legs you get the point.

I didn't see why everyone was yelling at me for it. It's not like I was hurting anyone,I was just cracking my bones, and joints. Sometimes I still don't understand why people get after me for it. I'm 20 years old so you would think that I would be able to do what I wanted to. Well even know that I have grown up and moved out and have my own place and go to school I still can't crack my bones.

I know that people are only telling me for my own good to stop doing my bad habit but it is hard. Habits are like a dark force pulling you in telling you to do it. Once you have a habit like everyone does,it's hard to stop.Well maby one day I will stop my bad habit. Who knows time will only tell.

If I Could Turn Back Time.

Have you ever wished that you could turn back time. Well, I know I have, and that's what Im wishing now. I wish that I could go back and fix my matake's in life or turn back time so I could go back and do the things that I should have done when I was younger but was to afraid to do.

Lately I have been feeling like I have been missing out on life. I feel like there are just so many things that I should have done and just haven't done. They are just simple things, like giving my great grand parents one last hug before they passed on, or going on vacations with my friends, or even getting close to people because I am afraid they will all go away and a forget about me. It's just simple things like that. Now, I know that I can't really turn back time but, it would be so cool if I could. If I could turn back time, I would say good bye to my great grandparents that I did not get to say good bye too, I would also fix some problems that I had at my previous job, also I would try to figure out why in this world I am so afraid to get near people, and fix that so that I can be near people without being afraid that they will run.

I know that at people might think that you can't turn back time so why even write about it, but to me these are just things that I have always wanted to chance. Maby if I could turn back time and change these things,in my life than my life would be different. In what way I am not sure, maby I could get a little closer that I fixed these things and have more confidence in my life, what ever the reason my be it would just feel good to me and I would not have to feel like I missed out.

I had a friend say to me that we all have things that we want to go back and change in life, but since that isn't possible why dread on it. Why think bad about yourself, she told me,and that it only brings your self confidence down and that those things are in the past so leave it there. She also said "Why try to change the past, why not live in the future. I had not though of it that way. Why am I trying to change the past when I can't,right? I think that I am going to take her advice, and try not to change the past and instead try to live in the future and live it right and make up for my mistakes. That is all anybody can do right?

I Will Always Be There.

I have a friend that is going through some tough times right now. She is such a great friend and I love her to death. I remember when my grandfather had his heart attack she was there. Actually it was the first time I had even talked to her. She was a shoulder that I could cry on and a friend that I could talk too. I think that is what makes her such a good friend, is that I can talk to her when I need someone to talk too. Lately though she has been going through some tough times. So much things has been happing to her, Its almost like 2010 is not the year for her, like I thought that It wasn't the year for me. Me and her are kinda in the same boat.

I feel like I would love to do more for her but sometimes I just don't know how. I have told her so many times that I will do what ever she needs me to do for her, and that she can call me when she needs to talk. God knows she has been there for me,so many times. See I feel like so many people have said that they are my friends and then they betray me. Well this friends doesn't I don't know how many people have a friend like that but they are good to have. I know for me I just need to talk to someone sometimes and she is someone I can just call and talk too when I need too.

Like I said I am the type of person that when you are my friend you are a friend for life to me. I love my friends and family.I like to be there for people and comfort people when they are down. I guess that is the way I have always been. I really hope my friend know that I am there for her when ever she needs me. Like I said I am not afraid to say that I love my friends. I think sometimes people lose sight of good friends. We should always keep track of our friends and family. Friends are so important to have, I can't stress it enough. Even if it's just a friend that you have just meet like my friend was. Always be there for your friends cause you never know when they might need you or when the tables are turned and you will need them.