The Unforgiving Moods.

Have you ever had a day where you are just not sure of a lot of things?Well,today I am like that. I am just not sure of a lot of things right now. I don't just mean it my life,but also in the way I feel.

I am not sure if I feel happy,or sad or confused,or depressed,or a little of both. I know it sound's weird but I am just not sure what I feel. I have never had a day like this. This is a new day for me. The other day in one of my classes we were talking about emotions. We were talking about how emotions and what you feel can effect your day.

My professor was saying how when your emotional,you are effect a lot more than by someone that is not emotional. Think about it. When you are depressed,you act a lot less happy,you are less social,and you don't have a good day at work,or school. When you are happy,you are more social and your days go a lot more smooth. He was also saying that how you look at life can effect your day to day emotions.

I believe that it is true. How you look at life does have a lot to do with how you feel from day to day.If you look at the glass half full than more than likely your days are going to be filled with happiness and joy. If you look at the glass half empty your days are probably going to be filled with depression,and sadness. Now I know that everyone has those days where we are filled with emotions,but I think that everyone should look at the glass half full instead of half empty. It makes for a better day and a better outcome in life,I believe.

As for me not knowing what I am feeling today,I just think that today is just one of those days. Maby it's not a bad think. Maby it is actually a good thing not knowing what I am feeling,at least this way I can't feel sad and I can't feel depressed.Well maby tomorrow I will not feel so weird. Who knows.

The Mad World.

Every person goes through a time in their life where it just seems like the world is turning it's back on you. It seems like today the world has turned it's back on me and now it's mad at me forever. Now I know that it seems like I keep talking about how bad my life is,but it's not that it is a bad life at all,it just seems like things in it keep getting messed up. I think for me I just have to figure out who I am as a person and what I am about and also figure out how to get things back on track.

I have always tried to think of the glass being half full instead of half empty, in other words I am always trying to look at the world as positive,but sometimes like today, it seems like things are not going so positive.One of the reasons why my day is not going so positive, is because, I had made plans with two of my friends that I had know for a great while, and both of them cancelled of me because I would not do the things that they wanted me to do and they cancelled on me at the last minute, which made it 10 times worse. This is why I tend not to get to close to people because they always go away from me and I just can't stand up for myself. Actually one of the only people that actually has stayed near me and that has not gone away from me, is my boy friend (God Bless Him)

I am just very stressed as well today. Maby it is because of work, or because of I have got a lot on my plate, but it is just a bad day today. I really hate being like this but I just don't know how to fix it. I am so mad at my so called friends for leaving me, I should be use to it but I just am not and I am mad at the world for putting this all on me. I mean I hate to complain I really do but I don't know what else to do about it. I just feel like telling the world ''Stop and hold on while, I catch my breath").

Right now all I feel like doing is just climbing up in my bed and giving up for the day,but I know that I can't do that because then I am showing the world that it has won and I refuse to show the world that it defeated me. This is just a bad day for me, but I am sure that it will get better as it goes along(hopefully). So if anybody has any advice for me on what I should do about my problems please tell me what to do, because I give up. Today I just feel like I should sit a cry because right now I am in a sea of emotions and at a loss for words.