A Clean Mess.

Usually I am a very organized person. Everything in my apartment has it's own little space. I have little cubby holes where I put my shoes in my bed room, and place where I put my clothes ,and even special design places where I put my cell phone at night. To say the least my place is usually very organized.

There are times however(another however,yes I know) where my place does get just a little unorganized. I have a lot going on and now with getting ready to graduate on my plate this year, 2011 from college it's been difficult trying to find the time to clean up.

I am not saying my apartment is so dirty you can't see the floor, I am just saying that sometimes,just sometimes I tend to just let things stay on the floor for a couple of days. I don't see it as things on the floor as I do so much an organized mess.

See there is a difference between an organized mess and and un organized mess,well at least for me there is. An un organized mess would be something where you can't find anything or you can't see the floor to walk,an organized mess is where yes there are still things on the floor but you can still find things that you need when you need it.

SO,see there really is difference between them. I am not to the point nor will I ever get to a point where I will ever have the un organized mess,I have the good kind of mess. Hey at least it's not like my room when I was little,now that is a whole different post.

No Pain, No Gain.

Usually,I am not one to complain when I don't feel well,or when I am in pain,but tonight I decided I that I am because I don't feel well and well I am in pain because of work(thank you work).

Tonight, I just feel like well, like crap. I don't think that I have ever ever felt this bad in my entire life. Everything from my neck down is hurting me. It's not good to complain but it just hurts so bad. How complaining about it is going to make it any better I don't know,but at least I can let it out there that I feel like crap.

I am not a big baby when it comes to getting sick or hurt but when I am it last for a couple of days. I feel like tonight all I want to do is just and not do a a darn thing. I still have a lot of things tonight that I need to get done but whatever. I will just do them tomorrow.

Well to say the least I am tired so I am going to bed. Sorry that I am complaining but I just had to get it out of my system and this seems like the perfect place to do it with out getting yelled at for complaining. Well Night all and hopefully tomorrow will be better than today.

Time To Celebrate.

Labor Day.A time to celebrate and thank those who do work their butts off night and day for us. It's a time we can reflect on our jobs past and present and thank god that we have jobs. At this stage in life we better all thank god that we have a job,because in a lot of the world there are people that have a job and don't get any appreciation at all or do not have a job at all.

I got a new job just 4 weeks ago to this day and I just love it. I have had jobs in the past but nothing like what I am doing now. See my job is the best,I get to work with people and meet new people each and everyday. For a person that always liked to be by her self as a child this is way outside my shell for me and is helping me conquer my fear of being around a lot of people.

See I believe that I do have the best job in the world. I say that because I have always wanted to help people. Even growing up, my family told me that I needed to be something in life that got to help people . So,now that I am finally grown I did just that. See I work In a nursing home. It may not seem like a great job to everyone else but to me it is so rewarding. It is something that I love to do. I love to help all the older people when they need it or just sit around them and read to them or talk to them if they need a friend.

I think that secretly it comes from when my great grandparents on my moms side when they were still alive or when I would go down and talk to my great grandfather and grandmother on my dads which I still do. I still talk to my grandmother but her husband has passed on now. and I do have grandparents on my dads side that are both still alive.See I told you all that we had lost my grandmother in February of 2009 last year. I still miss her like crazy like I miss everyone else that we have lost over the years but I still remember when I would go up to here house. All she wanted was for someone to sit and talk to her in fact that is all she ever wanted. So I believe that is part of the reason why I love this job so much.

I think another reason why this job is so important to me is because it really gets me out of my shell and into the world.It gets my feet planted steady on the grown and gets me something to look forward to each and everyday. Like I said, to some people this may just seem like any old job,but to me it's a wonderful job that I love.

At this time I would like to send a special note out to everyone that has a job and everyone that is looking for a job. Also I would like to send a special not out to the men and women fighting for our rights and freedom We may not say it enough but your work is very much appreciated and very much thought of.

Happy Labor Day Everyone.

Update Story.

So yesterday I wrote a post called "The Mad World". In it I talked about how bad of a day I was having and just complaining about my life.I have had time to think that post over and the more I thought about it, the more I realized all I was doing was feeling sorry for myself, which didn't help my problem at all.

I mean I don't know what came over me. Yeah, everyone has their bad day, and everyone is going to have a bad day once in a while,but what I have learned and though more of is that when you have a bad day you should not dwell on it and just let it go. So today, I decided that I was going to make the best out of today,no matter what happened.

As far as the problem that I was having with my friends, I decided to talk to them and to tell them how I feel. I mean I just thought that they should know how they hurt me. One of my friends made up with me. We just both agreed that it was stupid to fight and now we are friends again. I told her that I did not want one little think to end a friendship that has lasted for a very long time and because our friendship is something that is very near and dear to me. As for the other friends,well we still got some things to work out,but I am sure that our friendship will get stronger over time.

Like I said,I am going to make the best out of today and everyday from now on,It doesn't mean that I will never have a bad day again,but it means that next time I know how to embrace it and make it into a good day. I figure life is what you make it,and it can be good or it can be bad,but only you can decide that for yourself,no one else can make that choice for you. So now I am just going to take life day by day and handle one thing at a time.

PS:I want to think everyone that commented on my post yesterday,and for the kinds words that were said. Thanks.