That One.

As you already know Christmas time is just right around the corer. So I bet everyone is trying to get last minute shopping done,right. Your trying to get your presents that you got everyone wrapped and under the Christmas tree right. I bet you enjoy this time of year and you can't wait for the count down to come for that very special day right, and to see the smiles on your kids faces when they open up that new present on Christmas Morning. It's great right.

Well, this Christmas I got to do something that is just as rewarding to me as opening up a new gift. I got to bring joy to others. To give people a Christmas and help people out this time of year is one of the most rewarding things that I have done,and it has affected me greatly. It has given me a whole new way of thinking and it's something that I will never forget.

Before I helped out with this event that helps out people in need,I didn't really think to much when I would open up a gift on Christmas morning. I would just rip open the paper and not think to much of it. Now that I have help out,I am really starting to think about it. About what it would feel like if I knew that my children or family would not be getting a Christmas because of hard times or what ever the case may be.

At this event we worked with Toys For Tots which is an organization that helps out family who are in need of a Christmas. When we were doing this we had families that would come up and fill out a paper angel. The kids would write down what they wanted and of coarse their names and ages. To my surprise all the things these kids wanted were not big things,they were just simple things. Things that people take for granted everyday,like slippers,or gloves,or a hat or even a pair of tennie shoes.

The two cases that got to me the most was a little boy that was 12 years old. He could have ask for a bike from Santa or a video game. But no,he ask for just one thing,a pair of shoes. That's all this child wanted was a pair of shoes. And there was a little girl. She was on about 6 and all she wanted was gloves and a baby doll. Again nothing to big just two simple things. To say the least all the kids got what they wanted.

I was so happy to hear all the kids got some things for Christmas. For me it's not about the presents,or the tree,it's about being together and seeing other's happy. This event has really touched my heart,and it something that I will in fact be doing next year. So this year while you are opening your new gifts around the tree with your family,think how many kids are not having a Christmas,and be thankful for what you got.

Still Changing

Have you ever felt like the world was just spinning too fast? Like the world is circling to fast and you don't know how to make it stop. Lately I just feel like I have had so many changes going on in my life and I am still not done with the changes.

I know,I know I have already did a post about changes,but if I don't get what I am feeling off my chest I am just going to be sick(Really). I told you all in a few of my post that I hate change. I have tried to get better at it but nothing seems to be making it better. With Christmas coming and everything coming I feel like there is ten million changes going on right now,that frankly I just don't know what to think about or do about.

I am not sure weather it's a good thing or a bad thing but one this is for sure I just don't like them. It's everything from family to friends to just simple things like even deciding weather or not I should go out to eat with friends from work to eat Christmas dinner.

I know what your thinking. Your probably thinking that,there is nothing to really worry about and that it's all going to ok. Man how I wish I could think that way. I try I really do but for some reason I just hate change. Is it just me,or does anyone else hate change just as much as I do? What is wrong with me? Why do I despise it so much? I just want to once change something in my life and not feel guilt over it for once in my life. Help. That really all I can say. Help.

Another Update Story.

Yesterday I wrote a post on well the crappy day I was having yesterday. Let's just put it this way,it was not a good day,not a good day at all. Well I am happy to report today that my day has gone wonderful.

Today is a completely different day.It's as if the sun has come out and dried up the flood. I had a great day today and I am hoping that tomorrow is even better than today. Everything was wonderful and went exactly as I had imagined it would.

I think that yesterday,I was looking at the glass half empty. I just had a really bad day. See,every time that I have an off day,I try to make since of it. I try to figure out why I am having a bad day and turn it around.

I guess that is the best thing to do when you have an off day. I really believe that once you find out what the problem is than you can really put it behind you after you deal with it. If you don't deal with it and just keep it all bottled up than you are going to crack, so I personally do what ever I have to do deal with my problem. That is why I wrote my sad post yesterday. Like I said thanks to everyone that read my post. I am doing much better today.

PS: Thanks to Ruth for the kind words. I really needed someone to actually care. That and thanks for the HUG. It really helped.