Emoction Days.

So today as you guessed it I am yes, A little emoction. I have no idea why I am emoctionl. It' sucks because I hate being this way,but I guess that is the way it goes. I just have a million things going through my head and so I got to get them out some how. I have tried writing,yoga,and even running,but nothing seems to be working. I think the only thing left to do is just to sit down and have a good old fashion cry. I have been tearing up all day and to tell u the trust I feel some better. I don't know why I am up set but I am. So for now that's all for this post. I promise towmory will be a better post and a much happer post.

Gathering Love.

Today we all gathered for a celebration for my loving grandmother's birthday. It's truly amazing. We had cake that I baked,and ice cream,with apple dumplings and drinks, so not only was it truly amazing,but it was also yummy as well.

If it's one thing I can say about my family it's that we may not always agree with each other, but when someone has a birthday or someone needs something we are always there for each other. All families no matter who's family they may be has agreements,but with those we always look beyond them and strive for what really counts which is loving one another and enjoying each other's company.

I have and still am very lucky to always have my family. Sure we have our days where we want to just stay to ourselves and not talk to one another,but most of the time we just love each other. It's funny well kinda,but since I have been away for the past three years,I believe that I have missed my family more than I have in a long time.

I know that there are times where maby my family might have thought that I have made some bad choices,or poor choice,but like I have said many times the good thing about my family is that the let me find out for my self. They are and were there for me when and if I needed them but still let me find out for myself about some things that I needed too in life.

I am just truly blessed to be with people and pets that just love me as much as I LOVE them. Today's gathering is just one of many that we have when I come home from college.Today was just one of those days where the sun has come out and is glowing brightly down on us,and I could not or will not ask for anything more.

The Thinker

Have you ever just needed you time? Everyone knows what I am talking about,I believe. I am talking about that time where for just a couple of minutes you are just by your self and nothing can touch you or harm you. It's that time where you can just turn off everything and for me that includes my cell phone and just relax by yourself with no one around.

This week has just been crazy. I have had work and trying to get ready to go back to college, and taking care of my boyfriend because he has been sick,and it has just been crazy. Not all of this week has bad so please don't miss understand me,but I just feel like I am stressed some and it may just be from the lack of sleep but I am starting to be a little more irritate with people.

This is why I say that I need some me time. I need some time where I can reflect on my day and just well for the better lack of words,forget about the world just for one day. I need to just relax. I try to relax at the end of the day,but for some reason I never have time. I am always busy and just plan tired.

I think for me what I am going to do, is just pick a day and just have a me day. It's going to be a day where I can just relax and not think about work or answering the cell phone or school and just not talk about anything. I hope that I don't sound too selfish. I don't want to be selfish but I just need a day to chill out and relax. I need a day where I can get away from the world and just gather my thoughts and feelings.

I think that everyone needs those days sometimes. Those days where we can just gather our thoughts and feelings. I hope that I am not the only one that needs those days. Maby I will go to the gym and try to work it out of me, or maby I will just go down to the lake and sit by the water. Well what ever I do I just need to do it fast before I explode with all there thoughts and feelings in my head.

Busy Beaver.

Wow,what a day this has been. Have you ever had a day where you thought it was just never going to end? It seems like it takes forever for the end of the day to get here,well today was kind of like that for me.

When I woke up this morning I didn't think that I was going to be this busy. I mean I had nothing planned,and no call to make like I usually do. Then once I got up that is when it all started. It just seemed like it was one thing after the other. I don't mean to complain and it is not that I minded it, I am just so tired.

Between getting ready to go back to college and having to go back to the states and then having to pack for that,and writing my blog which I always do,and doing somethings around the house,and going to work,and then coming home and trying to grab a little bit to eat(which I have not done yet and it is almost 9 o'clock) and everything else I just have not had time to sit down. Really the only time that I have got to sit down is right now and that is only because I am writing this post (which I don't mind at all,it relaxes me).

Sometimes,it just seems like there is not enough hours in the day. I know I should be use to this,but sometimes it can just be overwhelming. Everybody has these days so I know people know how I feel. Sometimes, I feel like the best thing I can do and everybody can do when we have one of these days,is just to go at it full force and kick some butt then before you know it the day will be over and the next day will begin.