Perfect Is As Perfect Does.

Lets get one thing straight,I am so not perfect. Never claimed to be. Just like everyone else in the world I have got things that I need to work on,but at least I admit them. I know I am no where near perfect,no matter how hard I like to believe sometimes,but I not the worst out there.

I may not be able to adapt to things as fast,and I may miss my mark on life sometimes but those are things I can work on. I simply hate it when people tell me that I did something Wrong or think that I am stupid. I am not stupid,no where near stupid. I am actually very smart,so lets put that out there right now. If I wasn't smart would I be able to go to college and be able to graduate this summer from a university. I think not.

I see people all the time thinking that they are just so perfect. Well have I got a message for all of you that think that you are perfect,your not so get over it. Really. You may think your perfect but I am sure you have got flaws just like everyone else.

So my thing is this,we have all got things that we need to work on. Just because we have got things that we need to work on in life does not mean that we are not perfect. The only thing that should matter is what we think of our self's and as long as your happy with yourself that's all that matters.

The Other Side Of Me.

In case you didn't know it,I have 2 sides to me, as do we all. When,I'm out and about with friends,or hanging out with my boyfriend or something like that I am just me no, more no less. I am usually the one who is very quite,and kind of shy,and the one who even if something is bothering her keeps it bottled up inside. I suppose in a way,I have always been like that.

Then I have my other side of me. The writer side,I guess you can call it. This is the side of me where I really let everything that I have been bottled inside me just go. The side where I am not really afraid to let people see how I feel. I don't know,maby it just feel safer here when I am writing. Maby I just know that here people won't judge me or judge the way that I am.

I know that I have always said "What you see,is what you get" but sometimes I feel like that is not enought. Sometimes I feel like there is a piece of me missing, you know. Like there are days that I just don't know who I am. I know that I should know who I am,but with me I just never know.

We all have different sides to us. Can you guess what side this is of me,I bet you can. I will admit there are days that I just feel lost,or confused. I mean not knowing who you are sometimes will get anyone confused. With me,I like both sides of myself. I like my shy but sidle self,but I also love my writer side of my side. Most of the time I am in my writer side,but there are times where I am in my shy side.

So,maby having to sides of myself isn't nesscerely a bad thing. Maby since I have two side of me I know that I can almost always find out who I am. I know who I am not just one question,who are you and I mean the real you.

Curiosity Killed The Cat.

Have you ever heard the expression "Curiosity Killed The Cat? Well I have and that expression has really been close to me this week. See, I told you all the last couple of post that I have a new job. Now don't get me wrong it is going fine and everything, but I always feel like I am asking way to may questions.

I don't want the people that I work with thinking that I don't know what I am doing,but I really don't know what I am doing. I know that the first couple of days are hard in a new job but for me they have been extra hard. I bet you I have had to ask at lest ten million questions.

See I am afraid that if I ask to many questions while I am working, than my co -workers will look down on me and that is something that I don't want to happen. I really like this job and as I have said before,it is a new start and a new beginning for me but, I just don't want to look dumb and ask too many questions.

The only thing that is really making me sure that I am doing right by asking questions is what one of my boss's said to me last night. She said the "The only stupid questions are the ones that are not ask". That actually made me feel a little better and it made me feel more confident in my self.

I hope that I am doing right, I believe that I am by asking so many questions. I can't help that I am so curios,but I am,I have always been since I was just a little thing. I wounder about everything. Is that a bad thing or and good thing? Am I doing right by second guessing my self? And should I be really asking all these questions? I just need someone to assure me that I am doing the right thing. I really wish that someone could answer these questions for me, I really need them answered. And if anybody has any advice for me I could really use it right about now.