Peace Tree.

ok so as we all know Christmas is upon us then 2012. I love Christmas and all it's worth. From the smells and sights to the colors and the fun little decorations and lets not forget the all important Tree.

Yes the tree, one of the most important decorations I believe. This year instead of having just a tree with all my beautiful colors on them and amazing little bulbs decided have a little bit of a different tree this year. This year I decided to have a peace tree.

I love my peace tree. I decided to do a PEACE tree for a couple of different reason. The main one being that in 2012 that is what I want the most and not only for myself but for my family,friends and everyone and even for my pets. I want peace in the world and in my life and just in the air.

I just love my peace tree. with it's white lights and white sparkle icyle lights and the light blue bulbs and gold star my peace tree is amazing I think. . If I could post pictures I would but my camera is now broken. SO,I guess for now your gonna just have to use your mind to picture what it looks like.

Marry Christmas everyone,And Happy 2012 and many this year bring PEACE to us all.

Wet And Wild.

So yes I am back. It's been crazy since I have gotten back from the beach but I am back now, and ready to tell so here we go.

Yes,its true that I just got back from the beach. I got to spend 3 nights in 3 different ocean front beach houses and it was amazing. I love it. It was one of those vacations where you wish it would never end. I got to walk in the sand and see the sun go down,and I even swan in the water,and YES I know it was November but you all didn't think that I was going all the way to the beach and not swim,I don't think so. I just had to swim. To say the least now it was so amazing and I miss it so much. Besides the fact I have got a horrible cold SO , Here is some of my pictures of my beach journey. ENJOY

I miss the beach so bad and would love to go back today if I could but I can't. These pics are just some of many that I took. The rest I still have to up load but I promise they will be on here so. oh beach how I miss you and the very cold water.

Learning Never Stops.

It's weird to me. This crazy world and all it's about. From what we learn about life to what we learn in life and what we learn about our self's.

See,I have always though that I knew everything about myself and what I was all about . I mean how could I not know everything about my self right. WRONG. It has took me a while to figure this out but I think I have finally figured out who I am in life and everything about my life . Now don't get me wrong I am sure that there is so much more that I am missing about myself but right now I know more about myself than I did when I was younger.

My whole life I feel like my I have been on a quest to find out where life is going to take me and to try and figure out what I am all about. Of course I know my name and such but now I know so much more. Now I think I have found in which I have been searching for.

Now, I know what kind of person I am instead of what kind of person I want to be . Now I know that I can be so much more than what I think I can be,which is what my grandparents and friends have been telling me my whole life. I know now that I am so much more in life that what I ever wanted to be .

SO,if you ask me who I am or to describe myself I would say: I am young women trying to make it in life,I am a very deep,kindhearted person who cares about her friends and family and who loves to help people.I know that now I want to help people in life which is what I do in my job and love doing it. I am a very simple and quite person .

Again, I still have more to figure out but for now I think it's a good start. So if you had to describe your self what would you say. I am challenging everyone to do this and really see if you know your selves as well as you think you might.

Nervouse Nelly.

I'm back and ready to write,so here we go. This week has been crazy from work to now getting ready to go to the beach. Yes,that's right I am going to the beach in November. I know that's a little weird for me to take a vacation in November and to the beach is even more strange of me but let me explain.

I am not going to the beach by my self. In fact I am going to the beach with my church to hear a great speaker. Now,my thing is I kind of have a fear of this. No,not going to the beach or anything just being with that many people 24/7.

I don't know why am so nervous. I totally trust these people and think of them as family because they are all my age and I have known them for a while now so why am I just so nervous about going?

Don't get me wrong. I love to be around people. I really do love people and love to have people near me but not all the time especially at night. At night I am very much just a me person,which means I like to be by myself and just chill at night. At night my cell phone,I pod ,and tv goes off and I am by myself with no one around. So when I go on this beach trip I am going to have someone around me all the time which Yes spooks me.

I know it kind of sounds dumb and weird but I can't help it. I have been like this for so long. It sounds so dumb to be nervous about being around people but I am . Anyways the second week in November I will be writing from the beach so it should be great.

Busy Day, Busy Nights.

Ok, todays post is going to be kind of short but oh well it's a post,but I promise I will be back towmorry with a longer post.

Work latley has just bee crazy. I work basially everyday and I get busy we all do sometimes. With me it seem like latley I have been busy day in and day out. I feel like work has caught up with me and you know what,I am just tired. I really truly am. I need a vaction,who else is with me on this on?

It's not that my job is even that hard. It's the fact that I work all the time. No,really all the time. 7 days a week 50 hrs a week. Anyways,I told you all this is just my tired post. Towmorry will be so much better. I promise you on this one. Ok,Im going to bed anyways have a good night everyone.

Direct Me Not.

Ok,so I have to admit that I do not know directions to save my life. Of course I know my left from my right and things like that,I just don't know street names or at least I can't remember them.

If any of you have ever read my blog, you will see that I forget . A LOT. I will forget to put in words where they need to be,or forget what I am talking about things like that,anyways you get the point I forget things so it's only natural that I forget names or streets and sometimes just for a second where I am going. It's like when I get in my car to go somewhere my brain goes out the window and my mind empties which is not always a bad thing if you think about it for a second.

People ask me all the time where certain things are or they will ask me the name of a certain streets and I have to be honest with them and tell them " that I have no idea". Then once I do tell them that I have no idea I get it followed by the evil glare followed by the strange look on their faces,like I should know where places are. I am not an information booth so I really don't know.

It's not my fault that I don't know places or things are all the time. I forget, I am human and us humans do tend to forget sometimes. Give you it's some more than others but yes we all forget sometimes.

The only way that I can tell you where things are at or street names is by tell you what they are close too. And yes I know that this bad memory of mying is not a good sign for the future so that's why I am going to make the best out of my memory now why I still can.

So all in all we all forget it happens. The thing that I always tell people is that if you do not like the way I give directions then you have to choices. Number one: you can find it yourself. or number two: you can take the directions that I gave you and be happy with them. Remember I'm not an information booth so if you don't want the directions I give you here is a piece of advice don't ask.

Faster Than A Speeding Bullet

You ever feel like the days and weeks have just vanished. I have and today especially It has been one of the days where I feel like it has just vanished. Disappeared right in front of my eyes. I don't know where the days goes anymore or the weeks for that matter.

It's funny in a way to me. Before I got my job that I have now, I use to sit and wish that the days and weeks would go by faster just so I would not have to deal with them. Now I look at days and weeks and wish that they would slow down just so I could catch up with them.

I feel like I have missed so much in life. Maby not family things or important events, I just mean life and all it's beauty that's in it. It seems now that when I want everything to just slow down they speed up,then POOF there gone.

My Grandfather always said when I was growing up " Don't rush life because if you do,then it's like a fast moving train and it will never slow down or stop". I never thought much about what he said till now. Today for some odd reason I have been thinking about it a lot. It's like it's stuck in my mind now.

So,I believe that I am going to take his advice and just slow down. In this world I feel like if you take life to fast then it will go to fast and you miss out on so much. Remember,you can't turn back time we can just make the future slower.

It's Time For A Change.

I think it's time for another change. Lately I feel like I have been headed in this weird direction that life wants to take me,and honestly I think it might be a good idea.

Since I am on my own now,and have a great career on my hands maby it is time for another change in my life. Who knows maby it's nothing major that I am going to change or maby it is,what ever it is I am sure that It will be so great to see.

I think we all get like this sometimes or at least once in our lives,where we feel like we are just ready for that next step in life,and that next big move. It's kind of great feeling knowing that you have so much more in life than what we see right now.

I know in my life there is so much more up the road,and although I would never rush life,I just can't wait to see what is waiting for me,weather that would be getting married(which I hope very soon for),or a family or what whatever it may be it will be great.

Honestly I do not ever know what I am just now having these thoughts now,I think since I moved out and graduated college and got my very own place, it's only fitting that I think about something like this.

Well, who knows all I know is there is a great world out there,with room to grow and be free and express ourselves and it's only a matter to something changes.

My Night In The Stars.

I think I have said before, I love looking up at the stars. I can't help it,it's like a drug for me. I'm guilty, arrest me. For me the stars are just another way of escaping this crazy but yet amazing world when I need it.

I remember when I was little, my friends and I would go out in my back yard and lay a blanket out on the grass and just watch the stars. We would always try and make shapes with the starts . When we looked up and seen the stars, we would see all kinds of shapes and sizes.That's one good thing about the stars. When you are younger they can be so much excitement. Well at least for me they were.

Even now I am crazy about them. In fact when I have day where I have things on my mind or if I just need a quite place to write, I sit under the starts and just gaze at them.

I know it sounds weird,and for a lot of people it is but I can't help that I am obsessed with the stares. They are so beautiful and just amazing.

I had friend ask me one time " Why do you like the stars so much,they are just a bunch of little dots,and it's not like it's an amazing piece of art work or something"? Which I came back with " Yes they are art work, If you would take the time to look at them then you would know,and second keep your opinion to your self".

Stars are great, sometimes I think people don't take the time to just sit for a second and look up at them. I am not saying that you have to adore them like I do,but just look at them,even if it's just for a few seconds.

Stop The World.

Anyone who know me, knows that I just love my job and love to work . Work for me has always been a way for me to kinda of escape if that makes any sense at all. I know that it sounds weird but it really is kinda of an escape, maby that just show that I love my job but who knows.

Although I love my work and family and friends and things around me there are often times where I feel like I am just worn down and need to tell the world to stop for a second while I catch my breath. I hope I am not the only one who feels like this,I don't honestly think that I am. I think that there are many times where we all need to just tell the world to just STOP for a second.

I guess with work and everything going on around me it would be nice to have some time where I could just catch up with the world and with myself. Now please don't get me wrong,I have a wonderful life,and it's full of amazing things and amazing people but I just feel like I am worn down.

Wouldn't it be great,if we could tell the world to just stop for a second and to hold on. I wouldn't want to it to stop forever, just for a second. Long enough for me to just take a breath and go back to real life. I have thought about this for a long time,and always wanted to do a post about it,and I figured today was the day to do it. Thanks for anyone who reads this and to any one that follows me.

Organize Me Not.

Everyone that meets me, knows that I am a very very organized person. I have to admit that it's true that Yes I am an organized neat freak. I love it and just can't help it.

Everything in my home has a special place. Every thing that I get I tend to organize. I have a sense of accomplishment when I get to organize something. With my mind it's better that I organize things instead of just leaving them everywhere that way I know where they are at.

Not only am I just an organizing freak person but I try to make other people organize as well. It's just like this weekend when I was on vacation. I was sharing my room with a friend of mying which I don't mind at all until I found out that there were just so messy. They had clothes on the floor,and things out of place and it was just driving me crazy. To make a long story short I told her she needed to be more organized and she got mad and now we will never ever share a room together again.

I'm not saying that my home is so perfect it's amazing, I'm just saying that when I do organize that it makes it a lot more better on myself for when I go to find things.

I honestly thing because I was not organized in college that,that is the reason why I am so organized and clean in my home now. I wouldn't do it any other way.

The Birthday Crowd.

September is coming up fast,then after that it's October which means in my family and group of friends the birthdays start rolling in which is never a bad thing.

I love to help celebrate birthdays and I especially love to help plan them and in September and October I get to do that a lot

. It starts of with one of my best friends birthdays,she will be 22 I think, then It goes to my other half's birthday who I love very much, he will be turning 22 as well. Then my grandfathers is in October and my grandmothers so as you can see it I am booked for the next two mounts.

Birthdays are always special for me,so if I can make them special for someone else then I have done my job. When we have a birthday around my family then my family comes in from all over just to celebrate it. And of coarse I have to come in to be their.So I am bringing it on and can't wait for September. It should be a blast .

Looking Around The Circle Of Life.

Today's post might not be the happiest post but it's something that I have to get off my chest. So sorry for the weird post.

The past couple of weeks has just been weird,scare and just upsetting. It's been one of the weeks where I would just want to climb under a rock and stay there because I have honestly not a clue what to do about it. One of the things that has really been upsetting me is when people tell me that they want to rush life.

I bet I have had someone every week for the past couple of weeks tell me that they wish time would fly by. The only thing that I say to them is " No you don't". That's the only thing that I can say to them.

I am just so tired of people saying that. What I can't understand is why people rush life when life is just so precious and beautiful. Sure it's not all fun and games but that's no reason to rush things.

I hear so many people especially older people and people that are sick say that they wish they could go back in time and just live life more than they already have. So why if you hear that why would you not want to just live life.

I don't know,maby I am just old fashion but I make sure that when I am in life that I take it one step at a time and piece by piece. There are so many people that wish they could go back and just do things that they never got to do or always wanted to do,and never get to do.

Like I said,not a very happy post I know but I needed to get this off my chest. If I can just give anyone out there one piece of advice it's please don't rush life and instead look at like a puzzle and do it one piece at a time.

Mirror Talk.

Physically,Mentally,and Spiritually, I know who I am BUT, when I look in the mirror I still wounder sometimes who the girl is looking back at me.

We all have those times where we look in the Mirror and still wounder if there is something more. Maby something a little deeper than what we see and know. Don't get me wrong I do know who I am,it's just that I find myself sometimes wounder what more is out there for me.

Life in it's self has token me so far,more than I could have ever ask or dreamed of when I was growing up. Now that I am in my adult years I still wounder if what I see is really what I am or should I be doing something more with my life.

Although I am sure when I grow a little more there will be something more fantastic than what I already have, I still wounder what that will be.

I figure life is like a quest, you go on it looking for the ultimate prize but on the way you find some great things,BUT once you get to the ultimate prize it was worth all the hard work you put In to it.

A Lesson Well Learned.

I have always been one of those kinds of people where I was able to make friends fairly easy. True, I didn't always get along with all my friends all the time,but then again who does.

If you read my blog,you know that YES I have wrote about this and still do write about this subject quite a bit. Today again I am going to write about not only judging people but also about making friends. Say with me on this one, as it may be a little confusing.

The other day for my job, I had to out of town. I had to go to a convection center to work,with my co worker and also many other people. While I was working there I came across a lady that was probably in her late 40 early 50's . As she come over to talk to my co worker I simply turned my head to tell her HELLO to her. When she did not answer me I just let it go. After she left I told my co worker that I thought she was rude and a little weird because she just could not stop shaking. After I told my co worker that I got a response that I did not expect which was that the lady was not rude she was having a bad day and she had a disease where she could not help that she was shaking.

After she told me that I just felt horrible. I mean who was I to talk bad and to judge this women when I know how it feels to be judged. I just felt like I was just the most horrible person in the world. In fact I felt so bad that after I stopped feeling sorry for my self, I went right over to the women and her husband and introduced my self and apologised to her.

In the end the lady forgave me for judging her and we sat and talked for for hours. Now, that lady didn't have to forgive me, but she did. And for that I most thankful for. Believe it or not I don't normally judge people. I guess in the time that I spent judging this women I really could have been Friends with her. In the end it all worked out for the better for both of us if you really think about it. I learned an important lesson about judging and making friends and she got out of her bad day and started having a great day.

If I could give any advice through all of this post,it would be don't judge some one on what they look like or how the look like, and if you make a mistake make sure you make it right.

When Fashion Rules The World.

Have you ever thought about today's fashion and how it basically rules the world? Think about if for a second. Have you ever picked up a magazine,or turned on the television, or even talked to someone and had them say something about what you are wearing?

I think we all have seen or heard something like this. Fashion is all over this crazy world. It comes in many different shapes,and styles and almost everyone in this world just seems to be addicted it.

Let me start of by saying that yes, I do like to look good. We all do,but NO I am not obsessed with fashion. Never have been,and never will be. In today's world we put way too much on how someone looks,or what they are wearing. I mean who can help that we put a lot on fashion. It's all over the magazines and on the television,so it's only natural that we put a lot on how we look and what we wear. But should what we wear take over our lives?

The answer to that question is no we should not let fashion rule the world. With me, I wear what I like to wear. It may not be the thing that is IN this season but I like it and it's fine with me. No one else how to wear it and it's what I like so no one should say anything about it.

I really think that if we all put more on what we are wearing and just try to be ourselves and not someone else with what we are wearing than this fashion world would not be ourselves. SO do yourself a favor and instead of trying to wear the thing that is IN try wearing something that is you and no one else.And besides it doesn't matter what you wear or how you look it matters what on the inside that counts.

I THINK MY MIND HAS GONE ON VACTION.

Ok,so I believe that my brain has gone on vacation. Not that my brain has always been in but it's just that over the years my brain and me have had well lets just say issues.

Ok, so let me explain. Usually, I have a pretty good memory. I mean I do forget sometimes but who doesn't ,but now it seems like I am forgetting at the weirdest and most awkward times. I hate when I do that,and I hate when I can't remember things.

It seems that the only time that I ever forget things is when I really need them the most. Of coarse that is when it always happens. So, I am starting to think that my brain is on vacation,or maby it's on some weird planet that I am not aware of.

Another thing that my brain does is makes me forget where I put things. I can have something in my hands,put it down and forget where I laid it. It's like me and my brain don't get alone. I have just a bad memory and I am only 21,this is not a good sign for when I am like 50 or worse even 60.

LIKE A FISH IN THE WATER.

Anyone that knows me or that has even talked to me know that I just live to swim. I love to swim and it's a big passion of mying and always has been.

Knowing now that I love to swim, I wasn't always this way. In fact, when I was a bit younger I actually was scared of the water and did not want to go in at all. I would always ask my parents not to let me go in the water because I was too afraid of the dangers that I would face when in fact there were no dangers at all just great memories. When we were swimming my parents always made me go in because the were teaching me how NOT to be afraid of the water and after time I finally was not afraid to go in the water by my self.

Now, I feel like a fish in the water so free and able to swim about, and love every minute of it. When I am in the water I feel like I have no care in the world,and not a thought in sight which is great.

Maby it's just me being my crazy self, but the water is like magic for me. It's one of those things where I look back and actually Thank my parents for making me do. If not for them making me get in the water when I did not want to then I would still not know the wonders which awaited me.

One of the best things that I ever did was face one of my fears head on. Being free in the water is just great I love it. That's why I just love the Summer and all it's beauty and warmth.

BEHIND THE MAKEUP MASK.

Ok,so YES you guessed it I am so not big on make up. Never have been,and Never will be.

Now I can't say that I never EVER wear any but I just don't use a ton. For me I have one of those looks where I can go natural and still be pretty with out using a bunch of things on my face.

I have seen those women on tv,or in magazines a lot of those women look like they just have so much make up on. Everyone has seen these kinds of people it's those women who you can tell have a lot of makeup on because you can seen that little line right on there face. I just can't let that be me.

I don't mind looking a little made over but not a lot of make up on me. It looks to weird. I think it should be someones choice weather they want to wear make up or if they don't.

No one should be forced to wear it. Some people are just very naturally pretty and for me I guess that I just am. So if you wear makeup I just want to say I am not judging you. I am just saying that a lot or make up is not for me.

NIGHT OWL,DAY OWL.

It's now twelve at night and yes I am still awake. I am waiting for my eyes and my head to let me go to sleep. See, I am so awake in the night. I am very much a night person and always have been and always will be.

I have never been a morning person AT ALL. Even in college when I had classes it took everything I had to pull myself up in the mornings. I'm not sure why, but I always feel more relaxed in the night time, I feel like I am on top of the world at night and no one can stop me.


I really just do not like the mornings. I have a hard time when I get up for work now. Now because I have gotten a little older,now I always have to pull myself up and make sure I have coffee in me because if not I can not function in the mornings.


Maby I really am a night owl,in a day time owls world. Maby that's just what I am. But at least I know I am not alone on this one. We all are either a day time or a night time owl,we just got to figure out which one we really are.

THE LITTLE VOICES FROM WITH IN.

We all have those little voice from with in tell us what is right and what is wrong. However this is one thing that I have struggled with doing this week. It's not that I forget to listen to what my heart tells me to do,it's that sometimes I choose the wrong thing instead of the bad way.

This weeks has kind of been a struggle with in my self. This week I have had to go through a lot and a lot has happened some good and some bad.The good things I don't have to worry about it's the bad things I have had to really had to think about. With everything that has been going on, I have had to decide how to handle them. Sometimes I don't handle things the best way because as I had said I don't like to get in fights with people.

See,I have always been told to handle bad times the way my heart tells me to handle them. Sometimes I forget that, as we all do sometimes. I think there are just times when we all deal with things in a bad way not meaning too of coarse. It's something that we all do it's only human sometimes.

What I need to remember how to do is how to think with my heart and listen to my heart .I do struggle with that,but it's something that I am not alone on because I know everyone does this some time or another. So my lesson for today would be, when you are in a tough spot listen to your heart and do what it tells you to do.
(PS:These are some of my favorite lyrics that go along with what I am talking about.

"I've had choices
Since the day that I was born
There were voices
That told me right from wrong
If I had listened
No I wouldn't be here today
Living and dying
With the choices I made"

A DAY TO CELEBRATE.

OK, time has come and I am finally 21. Boy has it seemed to take forever. That's right it means on June 12th I was born 21 years ago. With cake and ice cream and and family and friends all around me it was time to celebrate and I could honestly not have ask for anything better than what I had.

I am a very simple person. On my birthday I really don't like to have anything to big but this year I decided to do not only one thing but two. First thing that I got to do was to have all my family gather with me and have a nice family dinner. The second thing that I got to do was go out with my friends.

Ok, I do have to admit that I did indeed have a few drinks. Now, I am not bragging so please don't miss interpret me,but yes I did have a few drinks and to tell you the truth they weren't horrible.

See for me it's kind of funny. Everyone keep asking me the whole day on my birthday if I had felt any different in age wise. And to answer EVERY ONES question the answer would be NO I don't feel any different from now that I am 21 to when I was 20. I feel just the same.

I think the reason it's so funny that everyone keep asking me that question is because if you think of it at least for me,when I was little and turned a differet age I always felt different because I was becoming a big girl and able to have more responsibilities. Now that I am 21 I just feel the same as when I did when I was 20.

So to get the point across of what I was saying, yes I really and truly had a great birthday,but no I don't feel any different.

TIME TO MAKE TIME.

Have your ever noticed how when you want time to slow down it seems to go faster,but then when you want it to go faster it goes slower? I have noticed that lately and I have to say that I am a little confused and not sure why.

So, I am going to tell you why I am so confused . Hopefully you will not lose me too bad but if you do I do offer a more simple story. So here we go.

Recently I have been so busy with well everything. Not only do I have a job that right now is so busy, I am also trying to do more things for the summer and of coarse trying to balance family and friends with work. So I got plenty on my plate plus more. Now here is the thing that I get confused on. Get ready.

What I get confused on is why is it that when I want time to go slower when I am doing something fun with my friends and family it always seems to go by in a flash. But when I am at work and I am waiting for the work clock to let me go home it goes by so slow?

It always seems to do that. I am really starting to think that time can read my mind. Like A mind reader. I just have never understood why it does that and to this day still can't figure it out.

MY SUPERHERO.

It's always nice to lend a hand to those who need it,and to stand up for someone when needed. I have seen first hand some people that I serenely will not forget because of the simple way they have helped not only me but my family. Total stranger's caught in the act of doing something so heroic and brave and yet so simple.

When you think of a superhero what is the first thing that comes to your mind? Well, I tell you the first thing that comes to my mind is super powers. It would be so nice to have superpower's and be able to do something so exciting and great. In a way we are all superheros we just don't think about it.

Think about when you stand up for someone or when you see someone standing up for another person. To me that's a superhero because it's not something that everyone does these days.

I have had personal experience to this and had my own superhero come and rescue me . My personal experience was when I had my first job. No,it wasn't a big glamor's job,but it was a job at the time. In this job I had a boss that just did not like me for some odd reason,and I just did not why. I mean I thought I made a good first impression so why didn't she like me? Well one day she decided to lash out at me at full force and it was so bad the only thing that I did was just stood there and cried. Long story short before I knew it a women came up to me and took me from my work and told my boss to go shove it.,

That women did not know me from anything,but that did not stop her from being my guardian angle and standing up for me. She was simply a superhero that used her superpowers to help and young person who needed help.

So you defiantly don't have to have a cape or superpower's or anything to be a superhero. We are all superheros in are own unique ways even if we don't know it and we can all help out in our own ways.

MY NON SLEEPING DAYS.

I have always been able to sleep,except close to exams for school,but that's another point.Anyways back to my original point,which is I simply can't sleep anymore. Plan and simple as that,I just can not sleep and to tell you the truth,I really don't know why.

I have tried so many things from teas,to special lotions and sprays,and yes I have even tried to drink coffee so I would just crash at night,but no my just will not let me go to bed,and relax. Since I have been out of school for a little while it's been a little better and I have been able to sleep usually 3 or 4 hours a night,but then I am back up before you know it and ready to start the day.

I really don't want to take medication for my bad sleeping habit because I am more into using simple things like special drinks or sprays but I don't know what else to do.

I simply need HELP,for this problem. That's the cold hard truth.

My bad sleeping habit could be because I have been stressed lately because of school,or because I just got a new job. I mean it's not like I a horribly worried about it so I don't know why that would be making me sleep bad.

Like I said I need help. If anyone has got anymore Ideas that don't include medicines to help me sleep than please let me know,I can use all the suggestions I can get. TRUST ME ON THIS ONE!

WHEN MY BRAIN HAS NOTHING TO SAY.

OK, all night I have been thinking about what to write about. I love to write,I really do it's a passion of mying so this should be no big problem. Right. Wrong. My brain has quit working tonight.

I really think my brain has a little mind of it's own for many reasons. I know I want to write tonight and I should be able to do it because I am all alone,sitting in on my beautiful chair next to my window looking up at the sky so it's the perfect. So why can't my brain just allow me to get the words that I want to say out?

I have so many things that I could write about the weather,the sky,my life TV. But no my mind says no tonight. I think my brain has an attitude problem.

Well,I may just put my brain to bed tonight. Maby it will actually let me do something tomorrow cause it has been like this all day. Lame brained.

Mother's On The Go.

So because the other day was Mother's Day, I decided to do this post on behalf of all the hard working Mother's out there as well as Grandmother's and Great Grandmothers and women who are like Mother's .

As I have told you all before,I have and still am very blessed that I grew up with so many loving women and men in my life. All those women like my Grandmother's taught me so much like how to cook(Which I love to do) and how to act like a lady around and out in public and so much more and for that I can never thank them enough for.

Mother figure's in our lives do so much for us. They pick us up when we fall down when we are little, they cook our meals,and stay up late to read us bed time stories,and tuck us in at night ,and are always there when we need someone to talk too.

Mother figures do so much and all the ask for in return is love and respect. So on behalf of that special Mother figure in your life make sure that you respect them and love them.

PS: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THOSE MOTHER'S OUT THERE.

An Ageless Limit.

Ok, so I know that we all age. It's one of those processes that we just can not help,BUT what happens when you try to stop the ageing process?

I know so many people that are just so afraid to admit their age and try to stop it by using all these aging treatments and things like that. I always thought that aging was just apart of life but apparently not.

I mean what are we afraid of? Why are we too afraid to let everyone see the real us? I mean the whole point of life is to let people see the real us and not to cover it up. If it was me and I am sure it will be in just a few years I would just yell out my age and not give a damn what people think. People are going to think what they want to think no matter how we look or what age we age so we might as well not even cover it up.

So this week and from now on I give all of you a challenge shall we say. The challenge is to go a whole week or even a whole month and just show who you really are. With no face creams to cover up aging or anything special being put on your face or body just show who you really are. And if someone ask your age shot it out and be proud of it and love it. I will be the first one to take this challenge and say that I am 20 almost 21 and proud of it. And loving it so much.

Set The Sun.

I am so obsessed with the sun going down and coming up,although I am usually not up to see it come up. For some odd reason I just love when I can go out to my favorite spot on my deck,sit on my chair,and watch the sun go down. Awww,what a relaxing time that is for me.

As long as I can remember I have been obsessed with the moon,stars,and the sun going coming up and going down. When I can be outside when the sun is going down that is my tranquil time. It's my time to write and think and just be myself when ever I want to.

I remember when I was younger, I would be at my grandparents house and we would sit lawn chairs in the grass, just my grandmother,grandfather and my self and would sit in the cool air and watch the sun go down and the sky go light up with all those beautiful colors and shapes. That was the one of the best things that we did when I was younger, and I still love it to this day. It's one of those things that I remember as a kid that will never go away and I thank God for that.

So, indeed I have just found out now why I LOVE to watch the sun go down. Plus it's a great time to have time for myself. My grandparents watched the sun go down with me,now it's my turn to share it with my kids (If I would ever have any).

Here is a suggestion, go outside on a beautiful night and just sit and look up with your family and loved ones. Look and the beautiful colors and shapes as the sun goes down yet again.. It's amazing.

The Easters I'll Never Forget.

Easter at my house has always been fun holiday. With the Easter baskets in hand and the eggs hidden we were ready. My grandparents use to take these little plastic eggs and put changes and candy in them and would hide them in the yard. Then when the all my friends and family would come by it was time to search for them.

So that was just one of many of my favorite Easter holiday memories. But come on this is a great holiday. With candy and baskets filled with all kinds of candy's and goodies and family and friends all around, it's one of those holidays that really make you think of those great time when you were a kid.

Easter at my house consist of me coming home from school,then on Easter we get up early and get ready and go to church,then we come home and sleep more because lets face it I get up way to early,then after we get up AGAIN , my family and friends come over and the hunt is on with the little ones in my family. After all that, we all gather for a meal that my family has made then me and my other half sit down and watch a movie and fall asleep.

So my family has a great big list that we do. Easter is great it really is. What are some of your Easter holiday traditions,and things that you can remember doing when you were a kid on Easter. Lets all share are memories.

A Lock Of All Locks.

So I just have to tell this story,and hopefully by the end of this story I will not be the only person in the world who has this problem

The other day I decided to get a new lock for my apartment door because the old one was broken,which is not the safest thing in the world. Anyways,I decided to get a new lock for my door,so I go to the store and got a brand new lock,and yes I was excited,why I'm not sure but I was. When I got back to my apartment I decided to put the new lock on the door right away because I wanted my door to lock. When I put the new lock on, I tried my new key that goes with the lock only to discover that my key did not work.

At first I had no idea why my key did not unlock it. I tried to turn the key and even jiggle the key a little bit but it simply would not unlock. So there I was with a new lock that did not unlock now. It seems I have the worst luck with lock of any sorts.

To make a long story short the reason that my lock did not work was because was because it was indeed broken. Just my luck that I would pick the lock out that is broken. I am starting to think that I am cursed when it comes to locks,because this all ways seems to happen. Maby it's not the locks maby people who makes that locks Lyndsie Proof's them. Hey it could happen. Oh well,next time I am making my other half buy and put on the lock that way if it doesn't work I can safely say" It wasn't me".

My Life In A Box.

Isn't it funny how we can have our lives summed up in one box? Now, you are probably wondering what I mean. Well I am going to tell you.

See just a few days ago I was going through some old things that I had in a cardboard box from when I had moved into my new apartment for college. All though I had some idea what was in the box I didn't know everything that was in it so, I decided to go through it anyways. Once I was in the process of going through this old box, I started finding things that I had not seen in such a long time.

For instance, I found a mask that I had made in art class in grade 4 or 5. Now that was such a long time ago and honestly I thought that it had been thrown out or even broken,but NO. It was in that box for some strange reason and yet when I seen it it borough back memories of when I was in grade school. Also in that box were photo's and things that brought back so many memories from my child hood.

See,it's so weird to me that some of our best memories can come out of something so simple like a box. They were great memories and I love remembering all those things but now it is time for new memories and maby a new box. Who knows.

Strong Willed Women.

I have always thought of my self as a strong women. With everything that I have gone through I have to say I really always have been strong, and I guess the reason that I am so strong is because I have been brought up too be.

In general I think all women are strong. If we look back on it(Sorry,I am a history nut) we have had so many strong willed women. Women,really have had to fight and be strong for a lot of things. Now,please don't miss interpret me I am not saying that men have had it easy,I am just saying that women tend to have to fight more for what we want and I really and not sure why.

That's one question that we got ask the other day in my class. So why is it that women always have to fight harder for the things that we want in life then men? Is it because we are not as strong, HECK NO. We are head strong. So what's the answer?

It's one of those questions that have stuck with me for a while so I just decided to blog about it,hoping that someone will give me some opinions on this.

Anyway that you look at it,all women are very strong. It doesn't matter weather others think you are or not it just matter what you think of yourself and if you see yourself as strong. So,I say lets get out there and show the world who is boss.

One Simple Word.

They say one simple word can't make a difference to someone. Well I know different and it's something that I have experienced first hand.

See,I was ONE of those people that always questioned how just one simple word could make a difference in someones life. Then I WAS one of those people that got to experience that and it made all the difference in the world for me,because I knew that someone cared enough about me and it made me realize how much I am not alone.

Honestly,we all just need someone to give us a kind word from time to time,or for someone to tell us that it's ok,or for someone to believe in us. It's weird for me because I really never hear someone just giving someone a kind word,when they really need it the most,and we really should.

It's just like the other day,I was really stressed for school,and work and,about my friends,and my family and how I really never get to see them except for holidays because I am so busy. I was just so upset and really the only thing I knew to do was to just cry. So that's exactly what I did until my boyfriend came home. It's amazing to me because the only thing he did was took my hands and held them,and just looked at me and whispered " It's ok" . Then I just put my head on his shoulder and finished crying and I felt so much better.

So you see someone saying just One or two simple words can make all the difference in the world to a person. Sometimes you will know it right off hand,and sometimes you may not know it till later but,it does make a difference.

So,the next time you see a person having a bad day,or someone that is really stressed,do yourself and them a favor and just give them a kind word or even a few kind words and watch that persons face just light up.It helped me when someone gave me a kind word so I know it can help someone else.

In My Own Little World.

Ok, so as of lately it's like I have been in some strange land . Now usually I am not in this strange land,but this week it has been especially bad. I have been so distracted and just like well in la la land if you want to say that.

Honestly I'm not sure why I have been out of it. I mean I have not been under any stress as of lately or anything like that so why must I just journey off to la la land?

Now don't get me wrong it's not like it is a bad place. In fact sometimes it's my home away from home. Sometimes it's the place where I go to when I am really stressed from school or work. So as you can see it's not such a bad place at all. In fact I really think everyone should have a little dream place to call their own. My little dream place is called La La Land and I love it and own it.

The only thing that I don't like about it,is when I got to my little world and it's the wrong time to go,like in the middle of class or in the middle of work. It's weird but I have been going there lately and I am starting to like it. I don't have any idea why but my mind wants me to go to La La Land so I am along for the ride.

So my thing is this,maby if everyone had a little dream world that they could go to just for them self's ,then maby,just maby we would have a less stress out world. Hey it works so maby it could work for you as well. Give it a shot,I bet you will be glad you did.

A Picture Perfect Scene.

Have you ever looked outside and seen a scene that was just so beautiful and just so amazing that it looked like it should be a portrait? Well I have and this week expically I have been noticing things like that. Actually this week I have been noticing a lot of things and been doing a lot of just looking around.

See,most of the time I am away for school so really all I see around me is buildings and people. When I come home however it's a different story.When I come home I see so much beauty and amazing things. It's things that have always been there but I just have never really token a good look at what is around me.

The things that I see are simple things, like the sun going down after it has rained, or the beautiful trees with the colors in them. Like I said just simple things. But those things to me look like they should be in a painting of some kind with all there beauty.

When I look at a painting I see color and beauty,just like when I look out side that's what I see. It's always amazed me to look out and see such amazing beauty,and too know that's it's always there,we just don't take the time to slow down and see it. So maby that's what we should all do that,just stop for five minutes out of everyday and just take time to look around and see all the amazing things around you. Who knows you might be surprised at what you see.

PS: Thers are some pics that I took. Enjoy

We Weren't Crazy.

I'm sure we have all done something crazy. I remember when I was in high school me and a bunch of my friends just took off too the open road. We have no idea why we just took off and whet off on a road trip but we just did. If I remember right that's how I got my first tattoo but that's a different story.

Anyways,when me and my friends took off we had no place we had to be. I still ask them today why we just decided to take off and the best answer I can come up with is we were young and we could.

See back then me and my friends were a lot of things and yes we did a lot of dumb things. We were the ones who would say something if things was not right, or the ones who would just take off out of the blue just to do it. We were the talkers and the note passers in class,and the cell phone talkers who would talk and txt while walking down the street. So me and my friends did a lot of things did a lot of things but if there is one thing I can say it's that were weren't crazy.

We may have been all those things but like I said differently not crazy. See I think sometimes we all need to do something a little nuts. It could be when we are in school like I did or even now .I think the reason we all need to do something a little nuts is because if we don't then we don't ever experience life. In my opinion that's the way we figure out life is from the things that we do. So go and do something a little nuts,just remember you can do something nuts and still not be crazy.

The Girl Behind The Mask.

Who is that girl behind the mask? Sounds like a pretty simple question,but for me it's not quite that simple. See, I have always felt like every since I was little,that I have had too hide behind this mask.

A lot of time I feel like I would just like to rip off the mask but how,is the question? I feel like there is a great person behind this mask but yet I can't let come off. It's like it's glued on or permeatly on my face.

I think the thing that I am afraid of is when I do take off my mask that I will be hurt,not physically but mentally. Although I have took en off my mask some and have been working on it it's still not all the way off. I don't want to take it off and be hurt. I feel like people say they know me on the inside,but they have no idea what I am or who I am on the inside.

So how do I get my mask off? Should I take it off and take the chance of getting hurt,or should I just leave it on and not take that chance? There is a great person underneath but I'm just scared. The plain hard truth I'm scared and I'm not afraid to admit it. I have been hurt before and had people go away from me before and I just don't want to be that way again.

So,yes I may have to lock away the true me and yes maby people are not seeing the true me,but this girl behind the mask is one that is not going to have hurt, this girl is going to be safe. I would love to show this girl. Maby one day,but for now this is just me, The Girl Behind The Mask.

God's Will.

Before I start this post I just have to say that I am not trying to force my religion on anybody so please don't take this post the wrong way.

These past few weeks have been so amazing. I am feeling a feeling right now that I have not felt in so long. It's a weird feeling but an amazing. These past few weeks I have a friend that has gotten me back into church,well that and of course GOD. See I go to this thing called DEEPER. Deeper is a night that a bunch of college students come together and just let God into our lives and speck the word of God.

It's an amazing thing that I just love. See I have not went to Church in a long time. Actually until now it's something that I had not thought too much about.

Since I have been going to church again,it's like everything in my life as fallen right into place. I have now since gotten questions answered that I have had for a long time,and a whole lot less stress than I had before.

I always knew church and the word of God and the power of prayer was amazing but I had no idea really what it was all about until I went back to Church. So I thank my friend for getting me back into church and I thank God,because without him none of this would have been possible.

This is all new for me and this is a roller coaster,but it's a great ride and a great life for me to hand myself over too and it's the only way I would have it.

Emoction Days.

So today as you guessed it I am yes, A little emoction. I have no idea why I am emoctionl. It' sucks because I hate being this way,but I guess that is the way it goes. I just have a million things going through my head and so I got to get them out some how. I have tried writing,yoga,and even running,but nothing seems to be working. I think the only thing left to do is just to sit down and have a good old fashion cry. I have been tearing up all day and to tell u the trust I feel some better. I don't know why I am up set but I am. So for now that's all for this post. I promise towmory will be a better post and a much happer post.

With Love Strucken Eyes.

Well everyone,it 's finally here. That special one day where you show the people that you love just how much you care. It's that one day where you look at your partner with love struck eye's like there everything in the world to you plus more,which is what they should be.

Around this special love holiday,it's always fun to think back on old stories to tell each other. Things that you all have both been through. I always like to tell the story on how me and my other half meet. It was quite an accident,but it was the best accident,but that's for a different post.

I just love Valintines day. I love the when my boyfriend takes me out,and we we have a romantic dinner,or we just cuddle in for the night to watch a movie. I have always told him it's not the big things that he does it's the little things he does,or the things he does and not even notice that he does them.

It's just little things like talking with me when I need someone to talk to,or when we have lunch together after a long day at work . So this is why I love Valintines Day Because love is in the air people,Love Is in the air.

HAPPY VALINTINES DAY PEOPLE.

A Look Back.

The other day something happen,so tonight I just have to share it and what better place to share it than right here. So here we go.

The other night while at work,I came across someone that I literal had not seen in over 15 years. Yes,that right 15 YEARS or maby even more. The person who I seen was an old teacher of mying that was and still is such a sweet lady. She was always one of those teachers who would help you in anyways possible. She would stay after school and help you study for a test or just be there for you when you needed a friend to talk to.

I don't want to release her name,but this lady is an amazing land. The weird thing was I had seen her around town before. I always thought she looks so familiar but I was not sure. I didn't want to just waltz right to her and ask "Hey are you my old teacher?" I thought that might sound pretty funny. Instead she came ask if she knew me.

Long story short we come to the realization that we indeed know each other. It was really good running into this old teacher of mying. I had not thought of this teacher for a while so for I could have knowing she could have been gone or moved or something,so it was good that she was in good health and doing well.

You know it's funny seeing this old teacher of mying reminded me of when I was in school. It was like someone had turned back the clocks and set them to when I was in the first grade. It was such and amazing thing. I was so excited to see her that I just had to write about it. So I guess the thing that I am trying to say is,if you have got someone that you have not seen in a long time,look them up who knows, you may be in for a surprise when you seen how much it sets back the clock.

Hand In Hand

Friends are great to have. They are there when we need someone to talk to,and to hang out with,they are there when you need someone to lean on and to have a shoulder to cry on. I know this because I have friends who are like this. Old ones and new ones.

Some of my friends I have been friends with for years. We have been through thick and thin together. Then I have other friends that I have only know for a short while but that I am just as close to as if they we hate known each other for years.

The good thing about my friends are that I know that I can always count on them when times are tough. that's a sign of a good friend. When you know that you can always lean of them for guidance.

So my advice to you all is . If you have any kind of friend keep them. Good friends are hard to come by. Short,Simple And to the point.

Someone Like Me.

They say everyone one out there has twin,or should I say someone that is similar to you. Now,maby some of you don't believe that, but I do. I actually started thinking about this a lot this week,after a friend actually told me how much he got me and how much we were alike.

I had not thought about this too much. Don't get me wrong I knew we had some things in common but,not ever this much .It's funny,we never know how much we have in common with someone until it's pointed out. But why? Why don't we just see it right away? Why do we have to wait till it's pointed out at us.

These are just some of the questions I was asking myself,when my friend pointed out how much me and him were alike. The more I started to think about it the more I started to realize it. I am ALOT,ALOT like him. More than I ever really realized.

So who know maby we do all have a twin out there. Maby it's someone that you haven't meet yet or maby it's even someone that you have know for years. Whatever the case may be when you find them you should ask yourself " How am I like this person"?

PS:These are two of my cats. They are not twins but they are diffently alike.

Cuddle Bug.

Well Here we are. Valentines day is upon us. Which mean times for chocolate candy,flowers,gifts,and some loven. I love Valentines day. For me it means a day of total relaxation and dinner and of coarse my faviorte time which is cuddle time. v

Every women loves cuddle time. It's that time where we get to cuddle down with the ones we love and just enjoy each other's company. I have always been some what of a cuddle bug.That's why my boyfriend calls me the cuddle bug this time of year,because I love to just cuddle down with him and just relax after a hard days work.

He has always been the most romantic type so for Valentines day he always gets me a dozen roses,and chocolate,then we watch a movie and have our cuddle time and that's the best part of the day.When we settle down and eat chocolate and watch our movie while I am wrapped up in his arms with my head on his chest is the best feeling ever.

Every Valentines day is special for me but he makes it even better. I love him so much and don't know what I would do with out him. Nothing can go wrong when I cuddle with him.

The True Test.

Everyone makes mistakes. It could be on a test,or in school,and the most popular with your life,whatever the case may be we all make them. I know that I have made a few mistakes in my life time,some that I regret and some that I really don't regret.

Growing up my family expected a lot out of me. They expected me to get good grades in school,grow up and get into a good college and live life to the fullest and sometimes I felt and still feel like they expect me to never make a mistake. Well NEWSFLASH, I am going to make mistakes in my life,I'm not perfect. Sorry.

In order to experience life I think we all have to make mistakes once in a while. Heck,if we never make mistakes how can we tell what life is all about? As I have told my family and my friends,I am going to make mistakes. Like I said I am no where near perfect, and I really don't want to be. What my family and friends needs to know is that with every mistake that I make I learn from.

My family is not always going to be with me and that's the cold hard fact. They are always going to be there when I need them mentally,but physically they are not going to be with me every minute of the day so when I fall on my butt and make a mistake they need to know that I can handle myself.

So,the fact is YES,I am going to mess up once in a while,I can't sit here and tell you that I'm not. What I can tell you is that I learn from what I mess up on and it only makes me stronger. People have to let me fall once in a while,we all have to fall once in a while. It's one of those things that we all have to do. In reality it's just one the many stepping stones that you have to cross in your life time. Some times repeatedly but eventually we all have to just cross them..

Classie Gal.

Growing up I was different from all the rest of my family. I have always been very classier and very proper. I was taught that way so I guess that's why I grew up that way.

I was always taught not to act like a wild animal,and to always give life my all, no matter what. I didn't grow up going to a lot of parties or staying out till all hours of the day. When going out with my friends I was always told to offer to pay and make sure I leave a tip. So,you can see what I mean when I say that I grew up with class.

Now,since I have moved out of my parents house I am still trying to figure out who I am. Am I still that classier little girl that my family grew me up to be or am I something so much more than that. Those are some of the answer's that I am trying to find out as I go through this crazy.

In some ways I believe that I am always going to be a little classier. I mean, I still don't go to wild parties or stay out till four in the morning but I believe in many ways I have change. I believe I have change just through how I act. Now when I go out with friend or family, I now fit in more. I don't act all proper any more. That's not saying that I don't behave I just tend to let my hair down a little more and relax instead of trying to be something more that what I am not.