The First One.

First let me start off by saying YEAH. This is my first post of 2011 and I could not be more happy or proud of myself. Why,I'm not sure,but I am happy.

Like I said 2011 is finally here. After waiting hours,and hours for the big crystal ball to drop in time square,it's finally here. Today has been nothing but celebrating with friends and family and counting down the hours to this grand year.

Today we celebrated by going out to eat, and going out to celebrate with others. We stood in the cold as we counted down. Their I stood with my all my friends and of coarse my AMAZING boyfriend,who gave me a kiss when the clock struck 12. I think that was the best part,that and watching fireworks.

Me and my friends and family has all talked about what our New Year Resolutions were and have been. Now,I can't talk about all mying but I will tell you one of them. One of my New Year Resolutions is to be a better me. This means,I am going to do all the things that I have been too afraid to do,or have been to busy to do..

I always make resolutions each and every year. I think everyone should. It's special. It's things that you want to try to do. Even if you don't do them or just don' t get them done it's good to make them and set goals for yourself. That's why I say everyone should do them. Everyone in my family makes them and most of my friends make them so it's a special thing for us. We would be lost if we did not make them.

So here's my toast to 2011. Thanks for coming in with a BANG. You have started good, now lets get this show on the road. Lets see what you got 2011,lets make this year the best year of all.

Resolve This.

I think all of us,well I should say most of us have New Years resolutions. Thinks we say we are going to do but sometimes don't. I know that some people do keep there New Years resolutions,me I say that I am going to do mying but then never really do.

It's not that I don't want to do my resolution,I just simply forget. I guess I just have so much going on through the year it just slips my my mind.

This year,oh this year is going to be so different. This year I am actually going to keep my promise and keep my New Years Resolution. It's going to be a crazy year but I am so ready for it.

So,lets all buckle up our seat belts and get ready. This is going to be a good year. In fact it's going to be the best year . PS:DON'T FORGET TO MAKE YOUR NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION.

The Wait.

Well ladies and gentlemen,the wait is finally over. Christmas has been here and now it's gone. Just like that in the blink of an eye it's gone. POOF.Gone.

I had such a wonderful Christmas. It was one of the most remarkable and beautiful times that I have had in a while. I loved this Christmas. Not just because of all the great things that I got from my family and friends,but because all my family was together and we were all celebrating such a great event.

I have a lot of my family close to me, but I also have family that is spread out as well, SO when we are all together it is amazing. Christmas is one of those holidays that we can all be together in one room and enjoy each other's company.

We all sat together in the living room, and ate great food that we all had prepared and talked. We mostly talked about old Christmas memories and some of the newer ones as well. We talked about everything under the sun and just enjoyed each others company. Too say the least this will be one of the Christmas's that I will not forget. Plus the fact that we got a white Christmas made it even more enjoyable and beautiful.

This is the perfect way to say goodbye to 2010 and invite 2011 to come in.

It's Almost Finally Here.

By the the title of my post tonight you can tell that my post is going to be about yes,you guessed it Christmas, my favorite time of the year. It's now getting down to that time when you start counting down now the days,but the hours.

With Christmas Eve being tomorrow I am just so excited. I feel like a little girl waiting to open up a brand new toy. I have always been a big holiday person. I can't remember a time where I haven't been a holiday person. They are just so fun,especially Christmas.

See,in my family we have always had these traditions that we have done,and do.
This year we ran out of time to do some of them but we got the most of them done,which is the most important thing to me.

What I am trying to say with this post is that I hope everyone has a Marry Christmas,and a ROCKING, 2011. Remember it's almost here.

Last Minuite.

Last Minute. I always hated to do things the last minute. Say for instance my Christmas shopping. This year between work,and traveling and getting ready for Christmas,it has just been crazy trying to find a time to do my holiday shopping. It seems like there are not enough hours in the day time to do it.

I really try my best to not wait till the last minute to do things LIKE my shopping. Each year I try to get a little better at it. My boyfriend always says I wait till the last minute to do EVERYTHING,but I disagree. Really,me?

This year thought It seems like I am running out of time,with two days to go before Christmas, I only have to get just a few more things. Just a couple of things that I did not think about getting when I was out shopping a few weeks ago. I always do it. I always forget just a few things.

I just have had so much on mind lately and it's hard to remember just everything that I need to do and get . I am sure I am not alone on this one. The holidays are such an Important time for me and my family and friends,so I want everything to be perfect. That added on to everything else is why I forget things. I really hope my mind gets better in 2011 because if it gets any worse than we are in for a lot of trouble.

Change.

Have you ever thought about going back in time and changing things in your life. Now think about this, what if all those things that you want to go back and change made you who you are today?

I know there are times in life where I have thought that if I could just go back and redo somethings that maby it would be better. Now I am starting to think that maby those little things that I wanted to redo in life made me a better person.

The things that I wanted to redo were nothing big,and really it doesn't have to be. Sometimes they are just simple things like visiting my family more or applying myself to be more than I can be,or even just getting my self out there more. All these things plus a little more is what I wanted to redo in life. Now that I have stared to think about it more, I think that I would not go back in change anything because in my life, everything that I went thought taught me something.

All the things that went on when I was younger and everything in life that happen made me who I am today. It made me a stronger person,and it made me grow up. It made me realize who I am and what I want to do in life. It made me realize how I wanted my future to be like,and it made and is still making my life and endless dream of possibles.

So the next time you think about trying to go back and wanting to redo something in your life,think about how all those little things made you who you are. I bet once you think that about it you will not want to go back and change a thing.I know it's crazy to think that one little thing could change all of your life,but it can. Maby life didn't work out how you had planned it but, what about it now. Think about it.

And It Comes.

This is my so tired post. Today I am really not going to have a post because I am so tired. It's one of those days where I have been up all day,and I didn't have much sleep last night so that did not help. Between work and finishing up last minute Christmas shopping I have just been beat. There will be a post towmorry,it's just tonight I am lucky I can type. That's how tired I am. I hope everyone has a great Christmas,I know I will. Well good nite. Tonight is a short post.

That One.

As you already know Christmas time is just right around the corer. So I bet everyone is trying to get last minute shopping done,right. Your trying to get your presents that you got everyone wrapped and under the Christmas tree right. I bet you enjoy this time of year and you can't wait for the count down to come for that very special day right, and to see the smiles on your kids faces when they open up that new present on Christmas Morning. It's great right.

Well, this Christmas I got to do something that is just as rewarding to me as opening up a new gift. I got to bring joy to others. To give people a Christmas and help people out this time of year is one of the most rewarding things that I have done,and it has affected me greatly. It has given me a whole new way of thinking and it's something that I will never forget.

Before I helped out with this event that helps out people in need,I didn't really think to much when I would open up a gift on Christmas morning. I would just rip open the paper and not think to much of it. Now that I have help out,I am really starting to think about it. About what it would feel like if I knew that my children or family would not be getting a Christmas because of hard times or what ever the case may be.

At this event we worked with Toys For Tots which is an organization that helps out family who are in need of a Christmas. When we were doing this we had families that would come up and fill out a paper angel. The kids would write down what they wanted and of coarse their names and ages. To my surprise all the things these kids wanted were not big things,they were just simple things. Things that people take for granted everyday,like slippers,or gloves,or a hat or even a pair of tennie shoes.

The two cases that got to me the most was a little boy that was 12 years old. He could have ask for a bike from Santa or a video game. But no,he ask for just one thing,a pair of shoes. That's all this child wanted was a pair of shoes. And there was a little girl. She was on about 6 and all she wanted was gloves and a baby doll. Again nothing to big just two simple things. To say the least all the kids got what they wanted.

I was so happy to hear all the kids got some things for Christmas. For me it's not about the presents,or the tree,it's about being together and seeing other's happy. This event has really touched my heart,and it something that I will in fact be doing next year. So this year while you are opening your new gifts around the tree with your family,think how many kids are not having a Christmas,and be thankful for what you got.

Holiday Pics.

So,this is one of just many photos that I had taken this year for the season . This picture is actually very near and dear to me because one: This is one of the photos that was taken at the charity even that I helped out for Christmas for the kids in our area. And number two: The santa in the picture is actually my grandfather. He and my grandmother plays santa and miss clause every year at these things. I love this photo.

Let The Count Down Begin.

SO,the count down begins. The count down to not only Christmas but to the new year as well. Wow,I can't believe how fast this year has gone. If feels like it just started. 2010 has been such an intering year for me and my family.

It's been one of those years where I where look back in 2011 and wounder how I ever made it through it. It hasn't been all bad so don't miss understand it. I am just simply saying that the first part of the year could have been a little better. But it's done and over with and the only thing now that I am going to look at is this last part of the year.

This last part of the year has been great. It's been filled with happiness and smiles. Not sure why that this part of the year is going so year but it is and I am not going to argue with that. Maby it's because Christmas is apon us in 9 days. I am so excited. This is my favorite holiday.

I can already tell that 2011 is going to be fantastic. It's just going to be a great year and a very successful year,why so successful year. Well because I finally graduate from college. That and I have told my self that I am going to go in to this next year with a smile. That is my one of my new year resolutions. What's your new year resolution.

Qulity Time.

Today has been a very special day for me. It's one of those days where I where look back when I am older and wounder why I didn't much care for them when I was younger.

Today for the first time in a very long time I actually had quality time with a family member. It's one of those family member's where I have been close tecnially,but never really felt close even know they are part of my family. I'm a weird little person,just go with me on this one.

With my quality time with this person I got to sit down and talk to this person,something that I usually don't get to do or don't feel comfortable doing with this person. It's a good feeling but a weird feeling. Something that I can not explain.

All that I can say is for the first time in a long time I feel a bit closer to this person. We talked and ate out,and just had a good time. It was a nice time to say the least. Family quality time is so important,in fact any quality time is important. Weather it be with a family member or with a friend,maby with your pets,or even with your self.

We all need that special time to reflect on our self's,others and our lives. So if it's one thing I can tell you and expecailly now with Christmas time coming and with family and friends coming in it's take the time to get to know your family. Spend that quality one on one time with them. Trust me it's so important to do.

Eating Around The Bush.

This week I have had to make a couple of hard decions about asking people things. See,this year I am helping an organization that helps parents get Christmas presents for there children so they will have somethings to open up on Christmas morning.

With this organization I am trying to help out a friend who is down on her luck. She only has one child which is good and the child is younger . She is just very concerned that her child will not have a Christmas this year. When I started talking to her I could not figure out how I would ask her if she needed help buying gifts for the child this year.

I don't like eating around the bush,but for some reason the words would just not come out of my mouth. It was a simple question,but I was just so worried that I would offend her if I ask her if she needed help this year.

Finally,after about an hour of talking to her I finally the courage from somewhere to ask her if she would need help this year. It's almost like the words finally decided to get out of my mouth.

After I as her,I was kind of shocked that I did,and also what response that I got. Instead of being mad at me for asking such a kinda private question she actually was very happy. In fact she was so happy that I ask her that she started to get all teary eyed. To say the least it got to me as well because I stated to tear up. It was differently such a beautiful Christmas moment. One that you can only find in real life,and not in fairy tales.

My friend told me that she felt horrible that she could not hardly buy her daughter something. The one thing that I told her was this. Things happen,things that you can not stop. It's part of life really. Don't feel bad that you can't afford much. The good thing about this little girl is she is she is young. Really she will be happy with anything.

After I told my friend that she ask me a question that caught me off guard. She ask me" Why I was helping her out". Without even thing about it I told her that the reason I was help her is because " I have been there too". Maby not in this same situation but I have been in a situation where I needed someone too. That and that she is a great friend and I would do anything in the world for my friends.

So I guess me taking to her really helped. It's so nice to help people out. When it's your family and friends out it's even better. Now I know when I need to say something,I should just come right out and say it instead of eating around the bush. Sometimes that is the best thing to do.

Winner,Loser.

I am and guessing I always will be a non competitive person. In other words I like to play the game but I am not big on if I win or not. Of coarse it never hurts when I win and I will currently never turn it down but I am not going to be mad if I don't win.

I have never been the one who cares if she Win's or lose's. I am honestly not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. For me I don't see it as a bad thing. There are many reasons behind my thinking. One because for me it doesn't matter if you win or lose it's how you play the game. And number two because everyone in this world is so on winning everything and we should just be set on how we play instead of if we win or not.

Now,when I am talking about games I am not just saying games like basketball or football,or hockey,or even board games I am also talking about life as well.

It seems like everyone now just wants to be better than everyone else. We are always trying to be something that we are not. That's what I am talking about really. I have never wanted to be something other than who I am and I believe a lot of people not really try to be who they really are. That's what I am saying. It should not matter if we win or lose it should matter just on how we play the game,the game of life that is.

The Perfect Gift,

I love to buy gifts for people. Going out and fighting the traffic just to get to that one special gift for your friends and loved once are what gets me in the mood for the holiday season. The only thing that I don't like about shopping for gifts is that I never know what to get anyone.

I am the person who you see looking around in the store like she is a lost little puppy. I never know what to people. I go through this every year. Always wondering what to get people or if I get them something will they like it. It's important that they like what I get them,in fact it's a must.

Every year I am always asking people what they want for Christmas,and for some odd reason I can't seem to get an answer out of anyone. So,because I can't seem to get any answer out of anyone I just tend to shop and hope they like what I get them. Whatever I get them I want it to be the perfect gift. I want it to be that one special gift that is made especially for them,the one that just calls their names,well you get the point.

It doesn't matter if I have to shop all day,or go everywhere. Where ever that one perfect gift is you better bet that I will find it no matter what. Trust me when they open up my gift on Christmas day they will know how much time I spent picking it out and how much I care for them. Hopefully.

The Unknowen.

Today,while out Christmas shopping I seen something that caught my interest. No,it was not a Christmas present it was an animal. Not just any animal I have to admit,it was a Sugar Bear.

Yes I know a Sugar Bear,it sounds so weird. Trust me when I seen them I couldn't believe it myself. If someone would have told me about them I would have never believed them. I would have thought they were lying. But believe me they are a real animal.

Sugar Bears(also called sugar gliders) are like well,like little square things. That's really the best way that I know how to describe them. They are so cute though. No,they are not rodents,they are marsupials so that's one reason why I like them. The second reason why these little creatures because just like a cat or a dog,they adapt to you.

Not only do they get along with you and your family but they also get along with your pets unless you have a snake which I found to be very cool. I have only just meet these little creatures and already I feel like I have learned so much about them.

If I could I would just take one home with me,because I am such an animal loves,but with the attention that you have to give them it's just crazy. The only difference between these little guy's and girls and a cat and dog are their size and the fact that they need a lot of attention.

If you get a chance you should really check them out. I found them to be so interesting and so cute and fun and exciting. When you see them you will want one I am sure. At least I did.

Kill Them With Kindness.

Have you ever heard the saying "Kill them with kindness"? I have,and it's something that I take to heart everyday I am out in the world.

This week I have really had to keep that in mind. This has been a very difficult week,and when you have to deal with someone who just wants to get under your skin 24/7 it makes it even harder. Because I have had to deal with quite a bit this week I have been letting this person just get right under my skin.

Since the beginning of this week since this person had me through heck and back, I have had so many emotions go thought my head. I have had anger,sadness,hate,and even a little happiness. I really honestly did not know what to do about this person and how to get them off my back.

Should I get even,maby I will just dish it back to them. Honestly, I just wanted to tell her to go jump off a mountain. Then a good friend of mying told me something and right now I think that it was the best thing that anyone could have told me. She told me to " Kill her with kindness". Yes it sounds weird but it made since. She also told me that " I am not going to get anywhere by getting even with her".

After thinking about it for a little while longer I decided to do. I will just be so nice to her it will make her mad. After a couple more days, I started seeing a change in this person. She actually stated staying off my back,and she started showing me the one thing that I wanted in the first place from her RESPECT,which is all we all want .

I should have know that it would be a friend to tell me what I needed to hear. I don't know what I would do with out my friend. So,if you are having problems with someone,let me pass on a little piece of advice that a very wise friend told to me "Kill them with kindness",after that just sit back and watch the chance in that person,and I bet you will be amazed.

Hot VS Cold.

I'm a hot natured person. I always have been,and my guess is I always will be. I am the one who always has to have the fan or the air conditioner on,which freezes everyone else. That's Why I am so glad that I have my own apartment,so I can have my temperature the way I like it.

I am not in any way a hot natured person. So as you can guess in the summer I hate the heat that's why I stay in the water most of the time. In the winter however I am just as happy as I can be. It's nice and cold and it's just my favorite season.

Not sure why I am not a hot natured person. It's weird but even when I sleep,I even sleep with a fan on in the middle of winter. You would think I would freeze into an Ice cube but I don't. I hate being hot. I would rather just sit outside in the cold then I would in the heat.

It's like my body is taken of by the cold air. So,I don't know if your a hot or cold natured person but if your like me and your a cold natured person yeah for you.And if your a hot natured person,well ok.

Holiday Memories!

December is a very special month for my family,as I am sure it is for everyone else. This is the month that we all try to get ready for Christmas time as well as the next year which is just around the corner believe it or not.

This is the month where the traditions start up for my family. We always do the same things for the holidays or at least we try too. One of the first things that we do is start baking. We start baking every thing that you can imagine. From cookies,to pumpkin rolls,to breads,and even candies,which are always delicious.

The second thing that we do is put up the tree. When I was a little girl,we had a real tree. Now we can no longer have a real tree because some of my family members are allergies to them so we have a fake on,which suits me just fine because it's just as beautiful. Are tree is 7 1/2 foot so it's quite a big tree. It's a mess putting up but once we get it up finally then we get to decorate it which is my favorite part because I get to put the angle on top of the tree. Then we light it up for the world to see.

The third thing to do is to do the shopping for gifts. That means it's time to get out on the already busy streets and fight my way through all the crowds of people that are also trying to get their family's gifts. After I get the gifts than it's time for me and my family to sit around and wrap them.

The last thing that we do is always get together and enjoy each other on that very special day. I feel like for one day the sun is shining and when we are always together I can just feel the love in the air as well as the miracles.

So,as you can see my family and I have always had our very special memories. These are the things that we do that makes my family special and different. They may sound just like everyone else's and maby they are but they are our special memories and that's all that matters. Holidays memories are very special to have and hold on too.

In fact any memories are special and important to hang on too. It's a special thing to have so if you have special things or memories that you do with your family through the holidays or through the year treasure it. Love it and own it. And NEVER forget them. Ever.

Know Your Story.

Everyone has a story. This is not just any old story that I am talking about,I'm talking about your special story. The story about your life and where you come from. It's one of those stories that you can not just make up off the top of your head. It's one of those stories that you really have to be truthful with.

I though since I am writing this post It would only be fair for me to share my story and where I come from. So,this is my story and I hope you all like it.

I grew up in Canada, and I loved it. I love everything about it. I am an only child(THANK GOD) and truly do not mind it. I was basically raised by my grandparents,and didn't mind that as well. I have always had parents,but my grandparents always helped raised me the most. I graduated in 08 and now attending college in the states. I graduate from college this year in 2011 and to tell you the truth I am pretty excited about it.

That is really the only thing I can think of to tell you all about my life right now. I know there is a lot more but I forget what it is. The point I am trying to get across is this,we all have a story. Some more entertaining then others,but we all have a story.

It is so important to know about my family's history. It's important to know where my parents came from,and what it was like for them growing up,and also about my grandparents history. I think that it should be important for everyone to know about there family's history. The ends,the outs and everything in between.

So,if you haven't already take the time out of your day to ask someone in your family about the history that lies with in. You know,you may be surprised what you find out. I know I was when I ask. So what's stopping you? You should ask and ask now.

Let The Race Begin.

So the other day I was talking with a friend about how good we really know each other. We were talking about everything,from what our favorite color's are, to what nervous habits we have. When my friend told me what she thought was my nervous habit was,I was just shocked. Un knowing to me,she informed me that my nervous habit is pacing,back and forth up and down.

To say the least I was shocked. I really though she was kidding. Me a pacer. So I ask her," Really I'm a pacer"? With out even missing a beat she answer's yes,once more. I had not even really though about it.

The more I sat and thought about it the more I realized my friend was telling the truth in deeded. I really do pace quite often. Not meaning it of coarse,but I do pace. I pace when I am nervous BIG TIME, and I even when I am happy,and especially when I am thinking about things,even when I am on the phone I pace.

This was a new though for me. How can I be doing something and not even know that I am doing it? Is that even possible? Well no worries though. I don't mind my little pacing habit. It's not like I am hurting anybody when I do this. It's just my little thing,that's all,it makes me,me. So I will just own it,and love it. Now if you will excuse me,It's time for me to go pace some more.

Poetry At It's Best.

I am not much on reading I have to admit. Never have been. I should be though,really the only time I like to read is when I am reading a post,or reading what I have just published.

There are times when I will pull out a book but, of coarse not just any book,I am talking about a piece of work that is actually good. I am talking about a little poetry. I have for some odd reason always loved poetry.

Poetry is a great thing to describe how you are feeling,and also things that you may be going through in your life. The up's the down's and everything in between. The thing that I love most about poetry though is how it can tell a story about your life in just a few short sentences.

Some of the best poetry doesn't have to come from great poets although they are amazing, some of the best poetry at least that I have just comes from everyday ordinary people like you or I. Poetry comes from the heart. It comes from what you are feeling that day,or what emotion you are in,or even what you have going on in your life.

This is a great thing to read when you are feeling down. I know when life kicks me in the butt and I feel like the whole world is raining down on me one of the best things that I know to do instead of just sit in my room and cry,is to read any kind of poetry that I can get my hands on. So the next time your down on your luck just pick up a poetry book and start reading,who know you may be surprised.

PS: MY favorite poem is a poem by: Edger Allen Poe called "The Raven"

Photo Time.

These are just two of my cats that I love so much as I do all my pets. The photo above is a cat that we call Mischieve,and the photo above that is a cat I can Cup Cake. These were taken when they were little. Aren't they just the most precious.My cats are all grown up and like a mother with a child I miss when they were little. It seems like they grow up so fast. In the blink of an eye they are adults. It's sad but at the same time it's also rewarding to know that you raised them up to be what they are today.

A Slip Of The Mind.

Can my brain get any worse? Come on. I thought when you were younger your brain was suppose to be in good shape not a bad shape. Guess I was sadly mistaken.

How is it that I can place something, somewhere and 2 seconds later I forget where I placed it? There are even times when I will open a door or a window and forget to close it after I open it. I have done that quite a few times.

I wounder if there is a way I can train my brain? Yeah, that's what's it needs. It needs some serious brain training. If only I knew how. Anybody got any suggestion? I can understand if it was only part of the time when I would be forgetting something,but all the time,now come on.

If my poor little brain is this bad now,I can only imagine what it is going to be like when I am 30 or 40 or even 5o,and 60. Now that is a scary thing to think about. All I got to say is please little brain come back,and stay here. Don't be going away now. Right now I need you so I can graduate from college this June so stay here for a while longer. Thanks.

It's Just A Number.

Why are people so obsessed with numbers. Not just any number's,I am talking about the dreaded number of age. I really don't know why people are obsessed with age. I just think that age is just a number.

Why do people fear getting older? Shouldn't we be celebrating getting older. It's another year that we are getting not only smarter,but wiser.

If you really think about it good and hard I bet you will feel the same way. Getting older has it's good parts too. Think about it. When you are older you have more freedom than when you were younger, you can do what you please,when you please and not have to worry about making anybody mad,or upset,and you have more knowledge of what is not only going on in the world but what is going on in your life.

So you see getting older is not so bad,you have your good parts about it as well as your bad,just like you do with everything in life. Don't hate your age, and instead celebrate it. Party it up. Shout it out,don't hide it.Remember you are only as old as you feel.

A Clean Mess.

Usually I am a very organized person. Everything in my apartment has it's own little space. I have little cubby holes where I put my shoes in my bed room, and place where I put my clothes ,and even special design places where I put my cell phone at night. To say the least my place is usually very organized.

There are times however(another however,yes I know) where my place does get just a little unorganized. I have a lot going on and now with getting ready to graduate on my plate this year, 2011 from college it's been difficult trying to find the time to clean up.

I am not saying my apartment is so dirty you can't see the floor, I am just saying that sometimes,just sometimes I tend to just let things stay on the floor for a couple of days. I don't see it as things on the floor as I do so much an organized mess.

See there is a difference between an organized mess and and un organized mess,well at least for me there is. An un organized mess would be something where you can't find anything or you can't see the floor to walk,an organized mess is where yes there are still things on the floor but you can still find things that you need when you need it.

SO,see there really is difference between them. I am not to the point nor will I ever get to a point where I will ever have the un organized mess,I have the good kind of mess. Hey at least it's not like my room when I was little,now that is a whole different post.

All Around Me.

Coming home from college is great. I get time to spend with my family,hang out with some old friends and just get to re know everyone that I have been to busy to see over the past couple of mounts.. However,"yes there is a however" it's not fun to come home when you are feeling sick.

So this week I am back in Canada where I belong with my family and wouldn't you know it I of coarse have the stomach flu along with a cold. Let me tell you it's not fun at all.

I hate being sick. I mean who likes being sick,not me and I am sure none of you like to be sick,RIGHT. I just hate the fact that I come home for a family member's birthday party and that I am going to stay for a while and as it ends up they end up taking care of me.How lame is that

I have been so sick lately that I have not been able to eat any thing since last Saturday. I am just so sick. This is not fun my Friends,not fun indeed. I did not even do a blog a couple of days ago. Yes I felt horrible that I did not write one,but who can blame me really. I passed out on my bed so yeah. Hopefully this will all go away soon and I can actually end up spending some good quality time with my family before I go back to the states for school. Let' s hope.

Life's Puzzle Piece.

If it is something that I have always been taught it's that life is a chain. A chain of lesson's or just a chain of events. For me it's always been a chain of events as I am sure it has for many of you out there.

Think about it. With everything that you have go in life from growing up,to going to elementary school then as soon as you know it graduating from high school,to even going to college it's no wounder that life is like a chain.

For me,I feel like life is passing me by so fast. I mean it feels like I just graduated from high school when In reality I graduated a couple of years ago. For heaven sakes,I am getting ready to graduate from college. How crazy is that.

I just feel like life is passing me by so quickly. I mean I go to classes ever day and go to work and visit my family on the holidays, and try to get everything I need to get done that day,and it just seems like the day is over before it even begins.

The thing that I am trying to get across is that life is like a puzzle. All the piece's may not fit right now but once you get to them they will fit perfectly. Try not no let life rush by you. Instead take the time to stop and smell the cool Fall air.

Sleep Land.

Sleep,it's a wonderful think isn't it. Really who doesn't love a little sleep especially when you have had a long day. There is nothing better really. The question I have is,what is too much sleep? Is there there even such a thing?

I am a very active person. Between school,work,working out,traving for the holidays,and so many other things it's no wounder that I tend to feel a little tired sometimes. I mean who wouldn't. Sometimes though I feel like I get too little sleep.

Now,I know life is not all about sleeping,trust me on this one. It's not like I sleep my way through this world it's just with everything going on I feel like sometimes it would be nice to have just a bit more sleep sometimes.

It's funny because I have friends that will go to bed at 2 in the morning and sleep in till gosh knows when. Me I am the total opposite. I got to bed at 2 and sleep in till maby 6 or 7 sometimes at the latest 8 or 9 but that is when I am at my home not my apartment.

Anyways,I guess what I am trying to say is maby so much sleep is not the best. I find that when I go to bed early and wake up early I have more energy,and I am able to get more done in the day rather than if I were to get up at 11 or 12. So the answer to my own question less sleep better energy,more sleep less energy,well at least for me.

Poof,Poof And Gone

I will be the first one to admite that I have a ton of clothes. Everything from dresses to my cute little pair of jeans which I love the most. Because I have a ton of clothes it seems that every time I go to wash my clothes something disappears,"Poof" just gone never to be seen again.

It's funny really. It seem like I put my clothes in the wash machine to be washed,but then when I put them in the dryer some of my clothes are just gone. It's like they magically fly out of there with out me seeing them.

I am really starting to think that I have a little fairy in my house that steals my clothes just because I have so many of them. Maby the reason that my clothes just seem to disappear is because I have so many of them. I should probably stop buying so many clothes but come on you have just got to have them. I can't go around naked all my life.

So if I have a little clothes fairy in my house I have got one thing to say to it. " Go away" Leave my clothes alone and please bring back the ones you stole .

Perfect Is As Perfect Does.

Lets get one thing straight,I am so not perfect. Never claimed to be. Just like everyone else in the world I have got things that I need to work on,but at least I admit them. I know I am no where near perfect,no matter how hard I like to believe sometimes,but I not the worst out there.

I may not be able to adapt to things as fast,and I may miss my mark on life sometimes but those are things I can work on. I simply hate it when people tell me that I did something Wrong or think that I am stupid. I am not stupid,no where near stupid. I am actually very smart,so lets put that out there right now. If I wasn't smart would I be able to go to college and be able to graduate this summer from a university. I think not.

I see people all the time thinking that they are just so perfect. Well have I got a message for all of you that think that you are perfect,your not so get over it. Really. You may think your perfect but I am sure you have got flaws just like everyone else.

So my thing is this,we have all got things that we need to work on. Just because we have got things that we need to work on in life does not mean that we are not perfect. The only thing that should matter is what we think of our self's and as long as your happy with yourself that's all that matters.

Art All The Way.

What is art? The best answer that I could come up for,at least for me is art is anything you make it to be. In fact I really don't think we realize how many forms of art there is out there. Art is all the way around us. It's everywhere,and it's in our everyday life's. I bet you if you really think about it art is something that you do everyday and not even realize it.

They way that I would define art would be something that you are good at but not everyone can do it the way you do it.Take me for instance. I love to dance. I have been dancing since I was young so for me that would be just one of many styles of my kind of art.

What people don't realize is that art does not have to be with a brush and white canvas. Art can be as simple as cooking,or dancing or what ever you do special. I have always had an open mind when it comes to art,and I think sometimes you have too.

I have seen somethings and thought,how is this art. But then I begin to think to my self that I have to have an open mind and think what the person was thinking when they created the master piece. So with that being in mind what your form of art,and please no holds back.

This Gift.

It will not be too long before Christmas will be apon us. This means busy towns,and city's,traffic,and long lines. It also means time for Christmas shopping,which is always fun.

I always have fun Christmas shopping. I love,love to pick out gifts for my special friends,family,pets,and yes even neighbors. I usually don't do my shopping until two weeks before Christmas. Why,I have no idea,I am wondering the same thing really. This year I have decide that I am going to start shopping early. That way I can I can get away from the traffic.

While I was shopping for everything and everybody it got me thinking. What is the best Christmas present you could get someone? Is it jewelry,or clothes,or maby and car or even better money.

For me the best present that I safely say that I would like to have even know I enjoy all those things is to be home for the holidays and to be with my dearest family friends and yes pets,and neighbors. I am away quite often for college and only really get to come home for holidays an birthdays so when I see everybody it's a special time.

So,whats the best present that you could receive? It it money and presents or something much deeper? It's you choice,you decide. Yeah for Christmas.

I Don't Know Blog.

Ok so I have writer's block again,I know what a suprise so here's a picture of my cats that I love and I hope you all enjoy as well.

I just love this picture. It's when one of my cats was just a baby. Dosn't he look so adorablel. Oh how I miss those days,those days of when they were little. Isn't he just so adorable. Really.

Woundering Worries.

Ok,so today I just have to write about something that I seen that well just made me giggle. So today while taking my trash out to the curb for the weekly pick up I seen a sign on the back of trash pick up where the put the trash in to compact it that said "Do Not Enter".

Ok,first of all who in there right mind would even think about entering a garbage truck, let along the back of the garbage truck? It's just funny that they would put they would put that on there. I mean don't you think people know not to enter the back of a garbage truck.

It's also a little sad to me. I mean,if they had to put that on there can you imagine what other silly signs are up. What has are world come to when we have to tell people what to do and what not to do. It's common sense people come on now. Don't make me do all the work.

Anyways,maby it's just me but I find it a little sad that we have to be told such silly things,but oh well what can we do?

Rule's To Live By.

In life there are rule that we have to live by. It could be just regular everyday rules like traffic rules or even home rules. What ever the case may be we must follow them to not only be a good person,but also so we don't get into trouble. But what about rules for life? We all have different rules for life either that we have been taught or that we live by. So with this post I am going to share with you all my rules for life that I have been taught and live by.

1.) Always respect your elders. It always shocks me how people don't respect their elders,and we should remember everyone get older.

2.) Treat people how you want to be treated. If we want respect you have to show respect. So be nice. Really.

.3)Always take responsibility for your actions. Remember you chose what you do in life nobody else makes those decisions.

4.)ALWAYS,ALWAYS love your family. You may disagree with them at times but your still a family no matter so respect and love one another.

5.) Help out when ever you can. I don't just me at home but in the world it's self. We have so much that could be done and just isn't so help out your community when you can. Trust me,you will feel a lot better when you get the chance.

6.)Love your pets. This is a big one for me because I am a friend to all animals. Remember animals are a living breathing things as well. Just like people they need love and attention as well,so for GOD SAKES, PLEASE treat them right and Love them.

7.)Be proper. You should always remember to say "Thank You" and "Your Welcome" to people. It just shows your a nice person.

8.) Stay close to your friends. Just think to your self that you became friends for some reason so hang on to them anyway possible.

9.) Be thankful. Instead of crying about everything you don't have be thankful for the things you do have. Remember that there are people worse off than you are so be thankful and respectful for what you have and thank god you do have what you have.

10.) The most important rule. LOVE your self. Even if it's ten minutes out of the day take time to do something for your self. If you don't do that every once in a while you will just scream so take time out and love your self. Remember your important as well.

Those are my ten rules for life what yours?

Weird Shaped Things.

So I have these weird shaped treese in my front yard. They are beautiful trees don't get me wrong. And who could resiest those colors. What I am woundering is how did they get to be that shape. I mean come on you just don't see tree's in everyday life that look pointed on top,or at least I don't. Those tree's have been in my yard well now my parents yard for a very long time. They are very beautiful shade tree's and everytime I come home for the holidays I like to sit under them and just relax,providing that's it's not cold and windy out side. All I can say is that I love those tree's,and there beautiful color's.

Keys,Keys And Everywhere.

Why is it that I have so many keys? I feel like I have so many keys. Keys for my car,or keys for my house,or keys for my apartment,or keys for my friends house. What am I the key fairy?

Do I use my magic wand and poof there is a key? Maby someone is just leaving me keys because they have so many. Well,that's how I am starting to feel. I can never say I don't have a key. I feel like a high school janitor with all my keys.

It's funny because I have never had this many keys before. I have keys for things that I have never in my life owned or keys that I have no idea what they are too. Maby I should just go and through out the keys that I just don't need. Why other people give me keys to there apartment I will never know. It's like I am the key holder,of all holders.

That should really be my nick name the queen key holder,because it seems like everyone gives me their keys and tell me to hold on to them. I have a hard enough time just trying to hold on to my car keys but now everyone else's oh heck no. I am going to put an end to the key holding. My key holding days are over.

Photo's In The Moment.

We all know I love animlas so today I decided to share with you all some photo's that I got of google,yes but are just so adorable. Enjoy.

I just love this photo. I LOVE this photo one because it's a beautiful shot,and two because it's just a simple shot.This kind of animal is endangered and with this kind of wolf there are only a very short amout of them left. It's a shame yes,but that's the way it is. I hate that it is that way. Most of them live in the snowey places like well,where there is snow or at least this one does. Found this video on you tube take a look at it and you will see what I mean. Enjoy these beautful animals. They are so amazing and they need to be some where people will not make them into fur for coats or for there meat. Enjoy the video and help save the wolves.

Gathering Love.

Today we all gathered for a celebration for my loving grandmother's birthday. It's truly amazing. We had cake that I baked,and ice cream,with apple dumplings and drinks, so not only was it truly amazing,but it was also yummy as well.

If it's one thing I can say about my family it's that we may not always agree with each other, but when someone has a birthday or someone needs something we are always there for each other. All families no matter who's family they may be has agreements,but with those we always look beyond them and strive for what really counts which is loving one another and enjoying each other's company.

I have and still am very lucky to always have my family. Sure we have our days where we want to just stay to ourselves and not talk to one another,but most of the time we just love each other. It's funny well kinda,but since I have been away for the past three years,I believe that I have missed my family more than I have in a long time.

I know that there are times where maby my family might have thought that I have made some bad choices,or poor choice,but like I have said many times the good thing about my family is that the let me find out for my self. They are and were there for me when and if I needed them but still let me find out for myself about some things that I needed too in life.

I am just truly blessed to be with people and pets that just love me as much as I LOVE them. Today's gathering is just one of many that we have when I come home from college.Today was just one of those days where the sun has come out and is glowing brightly down on us,and I could not or will not ask for anything more.

Still Changing

Have you ever felt like the world was just spinning too fast? Like the world is circling to fast and you don't know how to make it stop. Lately I just feel like I have had so many changes going on in my life and I am still not done with the changes.

I know,I know I have already did a post about changes,but if I don't get what I am feeling off my chest I am just going to be sick(Really). I told you all in a few of my post that I hate change. I have tried to get better at it but nothing seems to be making it better. With Christmas coming and everything coming I feel like there is ten million changes going on right now,that frankly I just don't know what to think about or do about.

I am not sure weather it's a good thing or a bad thing but one this is for sure I just don't like them. It's everything from family to friends to just simple things like even deciding weather or not I should go out to eat with friends from work to eat Christmas dinner.

I know what your thinking. Your probably thinking that,there is nothing to really worry about and that it's all going to ok. Man how I wish I could think that way. I try I really do but for some reason I just hate change. Is it just me,or does anyone else hate change just as much as I do? What is wrong with me? Why do I despise it so much? I just want to once change something in my life and not feel guilt over it for once in my life. Help. That really all I can say. Help.

One Christmas Wish At A Time.

Christmas is a time for joy. It's a time to celebrate the birthday of the main man up stairs. It's a time to be with your family and friends and really enjoy each others company and love for one another.

I can safely say that I am truly blessed for everything that I have. Although I have had a lot of things going on,I can say I am one of the luck ones. I know though that there are some people that are not as lucky as I am,but hopefully that can change.

See this year I am helping out with a Christmas event for children that will go around their Christmas tree on Dec 25 and find nothing under there,or nothing in there stocking. I know Christmas is not just for the gifts,so please don't get me wrong but for a child that is sup post to be a magical time.

This event is going to be so those children can actually look forward to Christmas day. I am getting donations for place to donate candy,or toys and just anything possible to make a child smile this year and well as there parents. We are not asking for anything big this year just anything really.

Actually,what I have found out is more and more people and business are opening up there hearts and wallets to lead a helping hand this year,I couldn't ask for anything more.

The reason that I am helping out for this event this year is because I know that I am truly luck on Christmas day,and all I can say is that I want to help give someone else a blessing this year. I figure if I can make just one child's Christmas miracle this year than maby someone will have an amazing Christmas. So if you can let's spread some Christmas love this year.

Inner Thought's

So here I find my self again not having any idea what to write. So tonight I decided too just write what I was feeling. I know,I know but really I have nothing else to write about so I have decide to write my thoughts.

Why Is it that I love this picture so much you may be asking your self,well I wounder the same thing. Maby it's because when I look up at the beautiful sky I know that anything is possible. I know that when I put my mind to something I can accomplish anything,and the sky is the limit. Maby the it's like looking at a piece of art. Wondering what the artist was thing about when he made that beautiful piece of art. Maby that's what I see when I look at the sky. It's just amazing.

The Turn Around.

Life has it's up's and it's downs now doubt about it. We all have those times where we just feel like the world has just turned it's back on us. Like we feel like no one in the world will understand what we are going through. Well,tonight I had one of those night where I felt like the world someone just wanted me to have a bad day,or so I thought.

Like I said we all have those bad days,sometimes you just can not help it.But why is it that until recently I find myself to come into contact with more and more people that just well,for the better lack of words who's attitude "Suck". I can understand maby having one day that you just want to be left alone. Trust me I have had those days,as we all have,but all the time come on now. I mean me give me a brake. It's like some one has rained on there parade and the sun is not coming out anytime soon.

I have the best example for this post today. Something that I have been wanting to share with someone and no one will listen so I am just writing."That's what's a blog is for,right".

Anyways, today I found myself with a similar situation. Today when at work I had to come into contact with a person that was just stubborn. She was just one of these people where nothing pleased her,and instead of trying to work out her problems like an adult she decided to take it out on everyone else. When she tried to take out her problems out on me I just decided that after she got done yelling at me for what ever she wanted to yell at me about, I was not going to let her " Rain on my parade".

I was not going to let this lady bring my day down,not after I was having a GREAT,GREAT day. Actually,instead of getting mad like I wanted to do, I decided to do just the opposite,I was going to Kill her with kindness. To make a long story short,it was making this lady more upset because I was being kind to her and I wasn't going to let her bring me down.

That what we all need to do when we know that someone is trying to make us mad,or when we are in a difficult situation. We need to kill them with kindness. Don't let some one bring you or anyone else down just because they are having a bad day. Instead turn it around and just tell your self that you are going to have a good day no matter what even if you feel like telling someone to just go jump off a Cliff like I wanted too.

To Ask Or Not To Ask.

Remember when you were little and you would be on a long car ride and you would be board so you would start playing the one hundred question game? Wasn't that fun fun times? We all know the hundred question game,it's that game where you start out with one simple question like " Are we there yet" and end up with a more difficult question,you can use your imagination on that question.

Any how I find myself now days doing the same thing that I did when I was younger, playing the hundred question game when I am board or when I am on a long trip. Seems like my childish ways have come back which is not a good thing I must tell you. Come on,I thought I was past that now,I mean I am twenty years old so that sort of thing should be past me,right.

So why is it that I ask these one hundred questions? What makes my brain think up some of these questions that I ask? Really,I can just be sitting down looking out of a window,or sitting outside and a random question just pops out my mouth and before I have a chance to even think weather it makes sense or not it just comes out of my mouth.

I am not saying that there is anything with asking questions. You should always ask questions. Heck,that's how we learn in life is by asking question,or at least that's the way I learn in life. I am just saying that I hope that I don't ask too many question,but really how many is too many questions. In fact is there really ever too many questions and what about dumb questions.

Here is something that one of my best friends told me when I ask them the very same question, they told me " The only stupid question is the one not ask" which to me are words to live by. What about you ?

The Ultimate Fight.

Veterans Day is right around the corner. This is a day to remember not only the men and women who fought for us but also the ones that died for us. As someone who know what it is like to have someone in the military fighting for not only me but for everyone else,I can honestly say I that I am so proud.

As I have said in a couple of post,I have a family friend that is in the military and he just makes me so proud. I really don't know what I would do without him. How he goes off and endures all that stuff over there that he has to see I will never know. He fights so I don't have to. Not only do I have him that is in the military but I also have my grandfather and great grandfather and my uncle,so as you can see I have a reason to be thankful this Veterans Day.

I think what we must remember though is this is a holiday that is set to remember those brave men and women not to run about for sales at the store. I really believe in this holiday and it makes me mad when all these stores that I see on the TV just cares about getting people in there and not about the veterans.

I know, I really should not put my opinion out there because it is such a touchy subject but that's just the way I feel. I can't help the way. Maby I am right or maby I am wrong I don't know,please tell me your opinion. Should some of the profits that a store makes on Veterans Day by a sale go to helping veterans or should it stay to the store?